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Okay, I was just thinking about how I recently have come up with Wangxian fics in which Wangxian's brothers actually have more compelling arcs than they do, which is frustrating because I don't want to write about those arcs!
And then I was like, "Wait, why don't I want to write about them?" I know why I don't want to write about Lan Xichen--because I just don't care much about him as a character. (I get why other people do! But I do not!) But Jiang Cheng? I ADORE Jiang Cheng! I love him to death! Why would I not want to write about him?
The answer I have arrived at is that it's too much. Jiang Cheng is so inherently tragic to me in ways that just hit too close to home. His whole story is about being left behind. It's about loving but not being able to communicate that in a way that's helpful. It's about being outshone by others. IT'S ABOUT LOSING EVERYONE YOU LOVE.
And I can't write about that unless I'm going to fix it. And fixing it would take...so many words. I can't do that in 6k words or 15k words or even 30k words. That would take a novel! And I do not have the time or energy to write a novel about Jiang Cheng!
And so I avoid writing about him at all, because I refuse to write about his pain and I don't have time to write about his healing.
Here's the question: Do any of y'all have a similar character in your fannish life? One you love, but who you can't write about for whatever reason?
And then I was like, "Wait, why don't I want to write about them?" I know why I don't want to write about Lan Xichen--because I just don't care much about him as a character. (I get why other people do! But I do not!) But Jiang Cheng? I ADORE Jiang Cheng! I love him to death! Why would I not want to write about him?
The answer I have arrived at is that it's too much. Jiang Cheng is so inherently tragic to me in ways that just hit too close to home. His whole story is about being left behind. It's about loving but not being able to communicate that in a way that's helpful. It's about being outshone by others. IT'S ABOUT LOSING EVERYONE YOU LOVE.
And I can't write about that unless I'm going to fix it. And fixing it would take...so many words. I can't do that in 6k words or 15k words or even 30k words. That would take a novel! And I do not have the time or energy to write a novel about Jiang Cheng!
And so I avoid writing about him at all, because I refuse to write about his pain and I don't have time to write about his healing.
Here's the question: Do any of y'all have a similar character in your fannish life? One you love, but who you can't write about for whatever reason?
