UUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHH I FAIL AT LIIIIIIIIFE

[lirazel]

And by life I mean lj. Same thing, right? Or at least the lines between the two have always been hazy. Things we know.

But seriously, I know I have been absent here other than popping in sporadically and spamming you with pics of people who will never be cast in things that will never exist outside of my brain. I'm just so very tired all the time, especially when I get home at night, that all I want to do is watch TV and reblog pictures of pretty people on tumblr. Because that's easier. It involves zero investment. All I have to do is press a button. I still love lj, I swear, but I guess I needed a bit of a break from it? Or I am lazy, one or the other. Probably the same thing.

I haven't written anything longer than three or four sentences in forever. I sit down to write and end up making lists. Mostly lists for picspams. Sometimes lists of why I love one thing or another. And I got to thinking yesterday (while other people were ranting about Valentine's Day, which I get, but it's one of those things I just can't muster up the emotional energy to hate? I really have zero feelings on it. Which kind of rocks my worldview, discovering that something exists which I have zero feelings on. But there you go) that maybe it's a good thing no relationships are on the horizon for me, because wouldn't that just take so much emotional energy? Like, how could I ever find a guy I could love more than I love British television? And fried food? And Faulkner novels? And Vienna? And the internet? And when given a choice between being with people (and by people I mean people who are either A) not related to me, B) the BFF, or C) Lil Sis's BFF) or being home and spending time with my beautiful, beautiful computer and my very comfy armchair, I'm like "INTERNET TIME! PICSPAM-MAKING TIME! READING YA NOVELS TIME! STAYING HOME AND WATCHING THINGS WHILE WEARING MINIMAL CLOTHING TIME!"

Wait. Maybe what I meant by "I fail at life" is "I fail at life."

Anyways, enough wallowing in my fail-dom. Popping in. Tell me about your lives. Tell me anything. Ask me anything. Post random gifs. Whatever. I've missed y'all, even if the idea of wading through comments or my flist is too overwhelming to contemplate at the moment. Still: hi! ♥

Oh, and I think I have a few fic recs for you later! So that's contributing, right?

Comments

[magisterequitum.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

HI!!!!

I've failed at life recently too. We can fail together.

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

Oh, good! That makes me feel so much better!

*hugs*

[flake-sake.livejournal.com]

Hehe, I'm so with you on the zero feelings on valentine's day. Boyfriend and me both forgot it and snuggled up happily anyway. It's just not important.

And Vienna?

Have you ever read (or seen a play by) Thomas Bernhard, when you were in Austria, I'm currently revisiting and can't help but loving the hate/love, it's so much how I feel about Austria (with maybe not quite so many "I hate nothing as much as...").

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

Awww! Yeah, my parents didn't do anything at all, either. I asked them if they were going to, and my mama said, "Your daddy still brings me flowers on random days. You think we're going to battle crowds to do something on a day when everyone is out? Besides, he washed my car on Sunday. That was his present to me." Which to me was more heartwarming than all the flowers and candy in the world.

I haven't! But I'll want to check it out now.

[deird1]

My main entry of note is here...

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

Oh, hon, I'm sorry. That's got to be such a rough position to be in. I hope this gives you a little time to decide what you want and that you both come to a decision that will be good for you.

*hugs*

[elisi]

My parents are visiting at the moment so I'm NOT HERE. However I made a post yesterday full of shiny links. Including the most awesome Buffy gifs ever. (If you haven't come across them yet...)

Anyway, am NOT HERE and must run again. Just saying hi!

*squish*

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

*giggles forever*

I'm glad to NOT SEE YOU! I hope you enjoy the time with your parents and I'll need to check out your shiny links, too!

[ruuger]

I'm running a Friendship fic fest. Wanna leave some prompts? ;)

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

I might! I absolutely love that idea, and I'll have to check and see if anything ~inspires~ me! Cool!

[viorica8957.livejournal.com]

We can all fail at life together! I have an essay due on Friday, but I'm stuck at half the wordcount, and I have fanfic I should be writing and a test I should be studying for, but I can't seem to summon up the energy for doing anything besides flopping. Ugh, winter. I am more than prepared for you to be over.

Um. Being Human on Sunday was good? Even if I did spend the Mitchell/Annie scenes cringing through my fingers. SHUT IT DOWN.

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

It's a fail-at-life party!

Oh, I know! WINTER. Least favorite thing. I am so over the cold. Thankfully here it's hovered around 50 degrees for the last couple of days so it hasn't been quite as bad as it could be (I was in shorts on Sunday washing my truck--it was a gorgeous day), but I have a feeling we'll have at least one more snowfall before spring comes for good, which is RIDICULOUS because I can't remember the last time we have more than one dusting of snow a year. Craziness. All of that to say: weather affects my mood and I will be glad when spring comes.

You are quite busy! Good luck on getting things done, though I understand the appeal of flopping!

It was good! Though now I'm all sad that Tom's gone away--I have an unreasonable fondness for me because of how much he looks like his sister, and I flail whenever he came onscreen and I was like IT'S LAUREN SOCHA'S BROTHER OMG. Maybe he'll come back or go be on Misfits or something.

BUT YES. The Annie/Mitchell was awful. I had to fastforward through a few of their scenes. I already wasn't crazy about the idea of them together, but this made me cringe so much. I do look forward to seeing it all go to hell in a handbasket, though, because obviously this is not going to end well.

[blackfrancine.livejournal.com]

Aw. I miss you. But I totally understand. I'm so exhausted right now I can barely type this--and there's absolutely no reason for it. Just terminal exhaustion.

And word to your Valentine's Day feelings. The boyfriend and I went to Chick fil A. And that was just fine with me. I'd prefer not to have Valentine's Day at all--it just seems like such a waste of paper--all those cards. I like getting presents and all, and I like getting presents for other people--but I hate HAVING to get presents. So that type of guilt-inducing holiday just sucks the life out of me.

Like, how could I ever find a guy I could love more than I love British television?

LOL.

INTERNET TIME! PICSPAM-MAKING TIME! READING YA NOVELS TIME! STAYING HOME AND WATCHING THINGS WHILE WEARING MINIMAL CLOTHING TIME!

Ha! yes. totally. My sister and some friends just invited me out to see a play tonight--and came up with some lame excuse to get out of it--because really, I just want to lay in my pajamas and play on the internet while Battlestar Galactica plays on the TV.

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

Terminal exhaustion with no reason behind it--exactly. I hate that you're going through it, too.

Hey, I love Chik-fil-A. And they have beyond awesome lemonade.

but I hate HAVING to get presents. So that type of guilt-inducing holiday just sucks the life out of me.

EXACTLY.

My sister and some friends just invited me out to see a play tonight--and came up with some lame excuse to get out of it--because really, I just want to lay in my pajamas and play on the internet while Battlestar Galactica plays on the TV.


We're living parallel existences. Maybe there are many copies, and we're both the same person.

But seriously--British TV demands nothing from me. I don't have to go out and look for it, it's right there on the computer. I think I'd be very good at being in a relationship, actually (I was being flip when I said that) because I like to take care of people emotionally and be taken care of as well, and also I find it impossible to hold grudges, but it's the finding someone that is just the most overwhelming thing in the world. SCARY. And I don't even interact with people not-at-work anymore, so where I would meet someone? Ugh. Gonna stay at home and be in love with fictional characters instead.

[petzipellepingo.livejournal.com]

Hi!

I think failing at life means at least you're trying to live life. And that can't possibly be a bad thing.

Is this gif random enough?

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

That's a wonderful sentiment!

And even more wonderful gif! LAUGHING FOREVER!

[gryfndor-godess.livejournal.com]

You basically just described my day today and my doubts about ever finding a significant other (I spend half my days reading, writing, and running, and I spend the other half living online; where would a man fit into that? What if he didn't like the same fandoms I did?????).

And I flailed a bit at "Reading YA novels time!" I read YA almost exclusively. Liked anything recently?

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

Yeah, sounds like we're about on the same page!

I mostly do YA fantasy or historical stuff. Right now I'm reading Megan Whalen Turner's The Queen's Thief series and LOVING IT MADLY. I love it so much I'll use my flail icon.

[eilowyn.livejournal.com]

I've been succeeding at fandom life but failing at real life. I'm behind in all my readings, I don't know what the fuck is Anselm's Ontological Explanation For The Existence of God, I throw my phone across the room when people other than the BFF call me, I'm stressing about work and demanding the psychiatrist give me meds to fix it . . . but I'm working on picspams and my 30 days of female awesome and organizing all my GIFs! Look at all the pretty GIFs I have tagged under "dance" so far!



















Also it's good to know you've been simply exhausted because I didn't know why you hadn't replied to my PMs and I started making up all these reasons for you not to want to reply to them not because of anything about you but all about my personal insecurities. It was a very insecure weekend. Glad to know you weren't dead in a ditch, though!

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

Well, at least something's going right, right? GIFS ARE IMPORTANT OKAY?

Anselm's Ontological Explanation For The Existence of God, I

When you figure that out, tell me--I'm interested!

And I hear you on phone calls. People know better than to call me, because I hate talking on the phone. Thankfully almost no one I'm not related to ever calls me so things are okay.

I hope things get less stressful for you, though.

OMG DANCING GIFS! LOOK AT ALL THE HAPPY!

No, no, no! I never get tired of you! You can always rant/flail/complain to me! I just keep avoiding my email because I know there are things I have to answer and it's overwhelming, you know? It has ZERO to do with you.

[laeria.livejournal.com]

<3, you.

I am actually kinda absurdly and possibly obnoxiously pleased that you're indifferent towards V-Day, because
a. you managed indifference! Yay you!
b. I too bear glorious indifference towards it and am happy to share it with you. Our flag is puce and our motto is "Meh." Sometimes there's lemonade.

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

♥, you!

Ha! Yay!

Our flag is puce and our motto is "Meh." Sometimes there's lemonade.


This made me laugh so very hard you do not even know. Favorite person.

[gingerwall.livejournal.com]

Lol, if you think that your level of participation is fail-y, then how are serial-commenters like me supposed to feel? I've written two posts in the past month! Now if I can only keep it up... :)

I've been secretly writing a Spuffy novel in my head for the past year or so, but really, who wants to read another high school AU? So I think I'll just keep it to myself for now. That and this whole becoming a real scientist thing is taking up a lot of my time.

"You want me to write essays all the time about how I deserve gobs of money? That's just not my style..." Somehow I don't think my adviser would appreciate that.

As far as YA fic goes, I am going to try to re-read Shade's Children (Garth Nixon) soon. It was one of the best (and one of the most adult) teen books I ever read. You should check it out while you're busy avoiding things.

[angearia.livejournal.com]

OK I WOULD READ IT

'cause spuffy high school au's are totally my thing right now. not what i want to write but what i want to read and i can't remember reading a good one in forever. so more please.

lol your icon

[ever-neutral.livejournal.com]

Like, how could I ever find a guy I could love more than I love British television?

RIGHT?

Effing relationships, how do they work.

Life-failers, unite. OH. Speaking of. I saw "127 Hours" yesterday! IT KILLED ME. And now I have come to the conclusion that James Franco is INDEED A STUNNING HUMAN BEING.

K that's all.

Re: lol your icon

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

GREATEST ICON EVER. Story of my life, seriously. But your icon is ridiculously glorious too.

Effing relationships, how do they work.


I certainly don't know, but I'll let you know when I figure it out.

I haven't seen it yet! I know it's around for download, though, so I'll have to do that....I enjoy James Franco as the biggest troll in the whole entire world, but I think that movie will take my appreciation of him to another level.

:D

[pocochina.livejournal.com]

I am completely with you on of your Valentine's Day non-feelings. I spent the night in my basement watching Dollhouse (MARRIAGE AS A HORROR MOVIE: not like I've never thought so!) and getting bitten by Kitty the Bloody.

BUT TODAY I WENT TO THE MOTHERF*CKING BANK LIKE AN ADULT! so! Things are looking up.

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

Sounds like an eventful night!

GOOD FOR YOU! It's hard sometimes, right? I really need to clean ALL the things, but we'll see if that happens.

YOUR ICON. DYING OF LOVE.

[next_to_normal]

Yep, totally feel you on the fail-y bits. I don't know why the universe won't just leave me alone and let me play on the internet all day! But noooo, I gotta keep having all this STUFF TO DO. Argh. So tired. I get home and just want to collapse. It makes me terribly unproductive.

Haha, I celebrated Valentine's Day by sharing funny/creepy stories about my internet dating experiences thus far. And also flailing over The Hunger Games and bookmarking fic like a mad thing.

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

I don't know why the universe won't just leave me alone and let me play on the internet all day! But noooo, I gotta keep having all this STUFF TO DO. Argh. So tired. I get home and just want to collapse. It makes me terribly unproductive.


EXACTLY. Story of my life.

Hey! What serendipity! I'm planning on reccing a couple of Hunger Games fic in my next rec post! Yay!

OMG CANDICE ACCOLA'S FACE. SO IN LOVE.

[snickfic]

Yay, Lauren! I have meeesed you, but I figured it probably was, well, general life exhaustion. I hear you there. I am so over this quarter and teaching three completely different classes at once. I come home and it's a serious question whether I will cook actual food with vegetables, or whether I will just eat cereal and drink tea. (Tonight, the latter happened.) I barely have the energy to blog the last week or so. I haven't done a voice post in weeks. I'm more weeks overdue on a genfic_minis fic, but I don't have the energy to write.

ARGH!

A new quarter, with fewer classes, cannot come soon enough.

However! I've been watching ATLA again, and it really picks up at the end of S2. I'm totally hooked now, I think.

Also, there's been more BSG. In a nutshell: I still love Helo/Sharon (although I wish we'd see more of it), I LOVE that Caprica!Six has a Gaius in her head, I am deeply angry/disturbed by what becomes of Kara after the occupation (I'm through the S3 opener now), and I still wish Lee would hog less of the show's attention. And I have an icon now!

So, what of the exciting job interview? Any word?

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

I've missed you, too! I was thinking about it just a few days ago!

How much longer does the quarter last? I'm sorry it's rough right now. I think it's this time of year just dragging us all down--the last leg of the winter just draining us. Hopefully when spring comes we'll all feel better.

Oh, good! I haven't been watching it, but I need to! I'll have to get back into it.

Helo/Sharon is my favorite couple (and I agree with you about wanting more of them).

I LOVE that Caprica!Six has a Gaius in her head, I am deeply angry/disturbed by what becomes of Kara after the occupation (I'm through the S3 opener now), and I still wish Lee would hog less of the show's attention.

Basically I agree with all of this!

I have heard (via potential!boss telling my daddy) that I am definitely in the running, which is good, but I haven't heard for sure yet. I'm praying that if I can handle and it's right for me, I'll get it, and if it would be too much for me, I won't. I'm comfortable with the job I have (or I will be once I get hired officially), so it wouldn't be so awful to stay here. But we'll see.

[aisalynn.livejournal.com]

I just need to say again how much you seem to be my life-twin. I mean, this:

spending time with my beautiful, beautiful computer and my very comfy armchair, I'm like "INTERNET TIME! PICSPAM-MAKING TIME! READING YA NOVELS TIME! STAYING HOME AND WATCHING THINGS WHILE WEARING MINIMAL CLOTHING TIME!"

is me exactly. As well as the whole, not having emotional energy for anything else, which actually, is causing some serious issues in the relationship I am in right now.

I love your icon by the way. :) Mind if I snag it? I was just thinking about how her blog post on responsibility was exactly how I usually end up dealing (or not dealing) with it. INTERNET FOREVER INDEED. :D

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

Ugh. I'm sorry you're going through that. Hopefully we'll all feel more upbeat soon?

Thanks! And of course--go right ahead! That's my favorite blog post of all time, because it's just so painfully accurate.

[mollivanders.livejournal.com]

Like, how could I ever find a guy I could love more than I love British television? And fried food? And Faulkner novels? And Vienna? And the internet?

I HAVE THESE FEELINGS TOO. What is better than hanging out reading and writing and watching great television? Partying? You have no idea how much my pending Vegas trip is exhausting me before I've even begun it. Sigh.

Keep on keeping on :D

[zombie_boogie.livejournal.com]

Like, how could I ever find a guy I could love more than I love British television? And fried food? And Faulkner novels? And Vienna? And the internet?

Weirdly enough, this kind of love does indeed exist (though the hubby likes to tease me that if he and my laptop were tossed into a lake I would dive after the laptop first. Untrue! The laptop would be toast anyway, so I would save him :P). I feel lucky to have found someone to revel in geekery and laziness with.

I'm kind of... failing at real life and online life? I have icontests and picspams to finish and yet... Tumblr Tumblr Tumblr (what's your Tumblr addy by the way?).