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+ It's Friday! Yay! Even though the weeks go by so much faster now than they used to, it's still nice to reach the end of the week and know that I have more at home time for the next couple of days.
+ To celebrate, y'all should watch this performance by the leader of my ridiculous boy band because it is glorious. And not even slightly kpop-y, so if you don't like that kind of music (I mostly don't either, which is hilarious to me), that's okay: you can still like this. It's beautiful. I can't imagine not loving it.
Sometimes when I get in a bad mood I watch Sunggyu's performances on Immortal Song 2 (of which this is one), and then I just feel better about the world because they are all amazing in their own way. Boy is talented.
+ And for your daily dose of sex, here is the love of my life. Watch it in 1080!
+ So last night![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
indiesnopp and I had a brief conversation about how much we worry about Prince Sungyeol. And how we're worried that because he hasn't gotten any acting roles in a while (while his other bandmates, even ones who never expressed any interest in acting at all, have), he's started to give up on his dreams and trying to make himself content with what he has instead of striving for the things he wants. And this just breaks my heart so much because I hate to see that in anyone, but I really hate to see it from someone I care about as much as I care about this child (which I KNOW is ridiculous. I know I don't know him. I know. I can't help it).
And some fan came up with the idea of people making him signs or letters or videos or something to send to him to boost his self-confidence since he's never had any and he keeps talking about how he's working hard to build it but you can tell how discouraged he is. And I'm...really tempted to write a big-sisterly letter to him about how he makes me smile and about how it isn't being dishonest (this kid values honesty SO MUCH) to pretend to have more confidence than you do and how I know how discouraging it can be and to not give up on his dreams, etc. etc. (And obviously I'd have to get someone to translate it, which would be an issue, but.) Which, on the one hand even the fact that I'm considering this is so, so weird to me because he's a stranger and I have never been one to care about celebrities' personal lives at ALL but suddenly I do. And I just feel like such a big sister to these boys and I just want them to be happy and to encourage them. And maybe that's weird? Or pathetic? I don't know.
Do you think that would be weird? It's not coming from a place of weird obsession or anything--if I met these guys I wouldn't squeal or scream or anything. In fact, if I saw them on the street I would pass by because I want them to have private lives. I'm perfectly fine with enjoying them from a distance on their own terms. And yet I have this urge to write this letter, but I don't want to be a creeper. I just don't know.
But LOOK AT THIS PRECIOUS FACE. How can you not want to take him out for coffee and listen to his problems and give him advice and tell him he's wonderful and encourage him?
Ugh. I hope I haven't become a creeper. I really don't want to be. This is one of those cases of my own excessive personality (I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT EVERYTHING SO SO SO MANY YOU REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND) confusing me.
+ Okay, so you know how hipsters are always and forever quoting The Perks of Being a Wallflower and that line "And in that moment I swear we were infinite"? (It feels so weird to me not to capitalize that wordBOYS WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME) Well, the other day redsilverchains asked if someone had ever made a graphic about my Infinite with that quote. So of course I shouted "THIS MUST EXIST!" and I proceeded to make the most godawful ugly hipster art ever with my Infinite boys in their most ridiculous photoshoot, a weirdly colored landscape background AND A TRIANGLE. I am so proud of this, y'all. It got almost no love on tumblr, possibly because people thought it was a serious attempt at art (though how you could think that when one of my tags was TASTE MY COMPLETELY UNIRONIC LOVE FOR A KOREAN BOY BAND, I'm not quite sure), but I am still just so delighted with how absolutely ugly it is and how much it mocks hipster tropes. I am still laughing.
+ Haven't seen Vampire Diaries yet because I went out to dinner last night with the BFF who I hadn't seen in weeks. I think I might avoid tumblr till I get a chance to watch it? Possibly. I'm not really sure. But you can tell me if you liked it or not in the comments if you so wish.
+ I watched the Big Fat Quiz of the 90s the other night, and I swear the last seven minutes are the most hilarious/horrifying thing I have ever seen. I was SCREAMING and laughing and cringing and this isn't even a British cultural artifact that I'm familiar with and it DID NOT MATTER.
+ If anybody sees Argo, let me know how you like it. Looper, too. I'm tempted to go see them, especially Looper because of my Rian Johnson feelings dating back to Brick, but of course only if they're good.
+ As far as reading goes, I read The Devil in the White City and LOVED IT. It's been a while since I gobbled up a book like that and it felt good. This post sums up my experience with reading any of substance that's not fanfiction for the past year or two. I hadn't ever heard anyone else articulate it before, and it made me feel better to know that I'm not alone. I remember the days where I would read two or three books a week, constantly reading, constantly constantly constantly, and I miss that. A lot. But knowing other people sometimes get "reader's block" makes me feel better.
And if you can think of any other nonfiction books that are that easy to read, that interesting, that focused on something random from history, you should totally rec me because I want to read them.
+ My parents have been married for 29 years as of a week or two ago. This makes me ridiculously happy, because they still enjoy each other so much and have such a strong marriage. They've definitely, definitely had rough patches and they fight and hurt each other of course. But even when my friends' parents started divorcing, I never once worried that mine would. I felt really...safe with my parents' marriage, if that makes any sense. I feel like much of my love of the institution of marriage (and my narrative kink for marriage, too) stems from growing up around a good one, one where it was clear they worked very, very hard at maintaining it (not to imply that other people don't work hard and things still don't work out). And if I ever get married myself, I will have so much wisdom to build on, and that is a very great gift. I'm really proud of what they've built. It's really beautiful.
+ To be even more sappy for a brief moment (you know how I am), I just want to say how much I love y'all.kwritten and I have been exploding with love for fandom as community and dialogue with art, etc. lately and for good reason. My friends I've met through fandom have been such a beautiful part of my life--I value my friendship with you as much as I do any "real life" ones. The fact that I can have conversations with you about the nature of art, about how I feel about writing and about how Mr. Blobby makes me laugh/cringe is just one of my greatest pleasures in life. I sometimes feel as though I should feel that I'm lacking something since most of my current friendships that aren't with the BFF/members of my family are all online, but I don't feel that way at all. I get what I need, human-communication-and-connection-wise, from y'all. So thank you for that.
+ To celebrate, y'all should watch this performance by the leader of my ridiculous boy band because it is glorious. And not even slightly kpop-y, so if you don't like that kind of music (I mostly don't either, which is hilarious to me), that's okay: you can still like this. It's beautiful. I can't imagine not loving it.
Sometimes when I get in a bad mood I watch Sunggyu's performances on Immortal Song 2 (of which this is one), and then I just feel better about the world because they are all amazing in their own way. Boy is talented.
+ And for your daily dose of sex, here is the love of my life. Watch it in 1080!
+ So last night
indiesnopp and I had a brief conversation about how much we worry about Prince Sungyeol. And how we're worried that because he hasn't gotten any acting roles in a while (while his other bandmates, even ones who never expressed any interest in acting at all, have), he's started to give up on his dreams and trying to make himself content with what he has instead of striving for the things he wants. And this just breaks my heart so much because I hate to see that in anyone, but I really hate to see it from someone I care about as much as I care about this child (which I KNOW is ridiculous. I know I don't know him. I know. I can't help it). And some fan came up with the idea of people making him signs or letters or videos or something to send to him to boost his self-confidence since he's never had any and he keeps talking about how he's working hard to build it but you can tell how discouraged he is. And I'm...really tempted to write a big-sisterly letter to him about how he makes me smile and about how it isn't being dishonest (this kid values honesty SO MUCH) to pretend to have more confidence than you do and how I know how discouraging it can be and to not give up on his dreams, etc. etc. (And obviously I'd have to get someone to translate it, which would be an issue, but.) Which, on the one hand even the fact that I'm considering this is so, so weird to me because he's a stranger and I have never been one to care about celebrities' personal lives at ALL but suddenly I do. And I just feel like such a big sister to these boys and I just want them to be happy and to encourage them. And maybe that's weird? Or pathetic? I don't know.
Do you think that would be weird? It's not coming from a place of weird obsession or anything--if I met these guys I wouldn't squeal or scream or anything. In fact, if I saw them on the street I would pass by because I want them to have private lives. I'm perfectly fine with enjoying them from a distance on their own terms. And yet I have this urge to write this letter, but I don't want to be a creeper. I just don't know.
But LOOK AT THIS PRECIOUS FACE. How can you not want to take him out for coffee and listen to his problems and give him advice and tell him he's wonderful and encourage him?
Ugh. I hope I haven't become a creeper. I really don't want to be. This is one of those cases of my own excessive personality (I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT EVERYTHING SO SO SO MANY YOU REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND) confusing me.
+ Okay, so you know how hipsters are always and forever quoting The Perks of Being a Wallflower and that line "And in that moment I swear we were infinite"? (It feels so weird to me not to capitalize that word
redsilverchains asked if someone had ever made a graphic about my Infinite with that quote. So of course I shouted "THIS MUST EXIST!" and I proceeded to make the most godawful ugly hipster art ever with my Infinite boys in their most ridiculous photoshoot, a weirdly colored landscape background AND A TRIANGLE. I am so proud of this, y'all. It got almost no love on tumblr, possibly because people thought it was a serious attempt at art (though how you could think that when one of my tags was TASTE MY COMPLETELY UNIRONIC LOVE FOR A KOREAN BOY BAND, I'm not quite sure), but I am still just so delighted with how absolutely ugly it is and how much it mocks hipster tropes. I am still laughing.+ Haven't seen Vampire Diaries yet because I went out to dinner last night with the BFF who I hadn't seen in weeks. I think I might avoid tumblr till I get a chance to watch it? Possibly. I'm not really sure. But you can tell me if you liked it or not in the comments if you so wish.
+ I watched the Big Fat Quiz of the 90s the other night, and I swear the last seven minutes are the most hilarious/horrifying thing I have ever seen. I was SCREAMING and laughing and cringing and this isn't even a British cultural artifact that I'm familiar with and it DID NOT MATTER.
+ If anybody sees Argo, let me know how you like it. Looper, too. I'm tempted to go see them, especially Looper because of my Rian Johnson feelings dating back to Brick, but of course only if they're good.
+ As far as reading goes, I read The Devil in the White City and LOVED IT. It's been a while since I gobbled up a book like that and it felt good. This post sums up my experience with reading any of substance that's not fanfiction for the past year or two. I hadn't ever heard anyone else articulate it before, and it made me feel better to know that I'm not alone. I remember the days where I would read two or three books a week, constantly reading, constantly constantly constantly, and I miss that. A lot. But knowing other people sometimes get "reader's block" makes me feel better.
And if you can think of any other nonfiction books that are that easy to read, that interesting, that focused on something random from history, you should totally rec me because I want to read them.
+ My parents have been married for 29 years as of a week or two ago. This makes me ridiculously happy, because they still enjoy each other so much and have such a strong marriage. They've definitely, definitely had rough patches and they fight and hurt each other of course. But even when my friends' parents started divorcing, I never once worried that mine would. I felt really...safe with my parents' marriage, if that makes any sense. I feel like much of my love of the institution of marriage (and my narrative kink for marriage, too) stems from growing up around a good one, one where it was clear they worked very, very hard at maintaining it (not to imply that other people don't work hard and things still don't work out). And if I ever get married myself, I will have so much wisdom to build on, and that is a very great gift. I'm really proud of what they've built. It's really beautiful.
+ To be even more sappy for a brief moment (you know how I am), I just want to say how much I love y'all.
kwritten and I have been exploding with love for fandom as community and dialogue with art, etc. lately and for good reason. My friends I've met through fandom have been such a beautiful part of my life--I value my friendship with you as much as I do any "real life" ones. The fact that I can have conversations with you about the nature of art, about how I feel about writing and about how Mr. Blobby makes me laugh/cringe is just one of my greatest pleasures in life. I sometimes feel as though I should feel that I'm lacking something since most of my current friendships that aren't with the BFF/members of my family are all online, but I don't feel that way at all. I get what I need, human-communication-and-connection-wise, from y'all. So thank you for that.
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Some of my flist have seen Looper and enjoyed it.
And Happy Anniversary to the parents.
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I love fandom and all of you so much. I'm really missing my Tumblr friends because I haven't been there in a while, but I might be going back to my old job which means more Internet time. Fandom is my social life. I'm having my best friend come with me to my high school reunion the Saturday after Thanksgiving, and I'll be visiting her in January, and hopefully I'll be doing something fun with the other best friend during spring break, but other than that all
my social contact happens online. I wish I had friends closer to where I live, but right now that isn't possible, so here's to human connection via Internet.
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ooh sweet sheesus that fancam. Jang Dongwoo you flawless man
can i pet your hair, it looks really softI LOVE watching him dance the most in Infinite, really in all of kpop. You can see his passion and all of his movement is so fluid and just... HIS FACE TOO. His face. Why. WHYYY. Just gonna leave this here.He is so precious.
About the Sungyeol project, I really want to do it too... But all I can do is read hangul, so I'm not sure how I could possibly- argh. But you don't sound like a creeper, don't worry. As far as fans go, I'd like to think you and I are sort of the calmer side because we're not all "OPPA IS MINE BACK OFF AKDJASKFLAJSK>F". We just love them from afar and respect their hard work and determination and want them to be happy ♥
A parting gift for you http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mb7jmg3XIv1qm9rj5o2_500.gif (http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mb7jmg3XIv1qm9rj5o2_500.gif) WOOYEOL ♥
aka Sungyeol smacking Woohyun for being a dorkHappy Friday! I hope you have a great weekend :)
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That said, there are definitely books I want to have read. A bunch of nonfiction, and also some "important" SF that I just think I *ought* to read, you know? And instead right now I'm reading Pratchett and Diana Wynne Jones and rereading Gaiman's The Graveyard Book. So.
Speaking of nonfiction, I may have recced this to you before, but: An Elegant Madness, by Venetia Murray. It's a cultural portrait of high society in regency England, sparklingly written with just the right amount of overview and detail and scandal. I found it especially nice for giving me some context for Austen and especially Georgette Heyer. (Cotillion will make so much more sense after you read this.)
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I feel the same about Sungyeol, I worry so much about him, I want him to be happy and feel wonderful and loved and have everything he deserves, but his personality is like that really. I swear him and Onew have me constantly worried, it kind of affects my life.
It's weird what kpop does to people (also jpop for me, whats with these idols groups?), I mean I listen to other music and I have groups that I adore, but this need of protecting them and wanting them to feel happy all the time it's not something I'd experienced before (well I lied, maybe for LP when I was younger). It's probably because they just put so much of their private lives for everyone to see (also, korean fans are kinda crazy with the fancams and fanaccounts about everything) that you end up feeling part of that and you want to fix whatever is wrong, which is you know, impossible.
How did you get into kpop btw?
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29 years is wonderful. The mister and I have been married for 26 and it's work sometimes, but it's mostly great fun. No one can make me laugh like he can.
Your unironic love for this Korean boy band makes me smile. You should write that letter just to get all you unironic feelings out!
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How can you not want to take him out for coffee and listen to his problems and give him advice and tell him he's wonderful and encourage him?
I know I do. In every possible way.
Also ... IDEK HOW A LETTER LIKE THAT WOULD WORK! My hesitation over sending/doing something like that is that.... he may never see it. They receive heaps of gifts from the fangirls out there: so how would he even know? On the other hand - I think that if there was a fangirl movement and everyone agreed: This week, we just LOVE on Sungyeol - maybe that would perk him up a little? (But that seems so shallow/based on quantity and Yeollie isn't shallow)... SO IN CONCLUSION: I have the same feels of worry for this boy and his adorableness and I think writing some sort of letter may help you get to some sort of catharsis on that front? And maybe (I am so at a loss - watch me try to make sense of this world) ... maybe one of the fangirl noonas would help you somehow? Maybe translate it and post it to a website that is popular in Korea? Or translate and send it for you? Or help you start a page of some kind: "Letters to Yeollie: Let us tell you why we love you" and ... Idk do they have the opportunity to surf the 'Nets? Would it make him feel better to know there are heaps of people who think he is amazing (or would that make him feel worse - it would make me feel worse!)?
Also - Dongwoo is terrifying
ly beautiful. And!!! I can't take Myungsoo seriously. Like. Ever. (I blame you and also his DERPY FACE) And!!! SUNGGYU MAY OWN MY SOUL! But I'm not really sure - it sort of depends on the moment... Because most of the time, I STAN Woohyunny's everything.(Watching Sunggyu wail got me nostalgic for Big Bang and my complete
lack offangirling of them all over myself... and I want to know: WHERE IS THAT RPF? Because I want Daesung to be the happiest person on the planet... and also it's possible that I believe G-Dragon is secretly the sweetest, most innocent creature of them all....)In other words: I UNDERSTAND AND FEEL YOUR UN-IRONIC FEELS FOR THESE BOYS AND THEIR FACES
*ahem*
and I proceeded to make the most godawful ugly hipster art ever with my Infinite boys in their most ridiculous photoshoot, a weirdly colored landscape background AND A TRIANGLE.
I get it. I got it. I LOVE IT SO MUCH! (In a completely: I giggled about it most of the day)
My friends I've met through fandom have been such a beautiful part of my life--I value my friendship with you as much as I do any "real life" ones.
THAT'S ME! AND YOU! And I just! ((huggles this statement))
I love the things I blame you for. I love how infectious your love for things is. Thank you so much for existing!
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To be even more sappy for a brief moment (you know how I am), I just want to say how much I love y'all.
♥ ♥ ♥ !!!!!!
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:(((((( the Sunggyu video has been removed. Later I will have to go see if I can find another because I love his voice SO MUCH.
I'm sitting here on my parents' very slow internet patiently waiting for Dongwoo to load in 1080p because anything less for Dongwoo is UNACCEPTABLE. *waits*
Your hipster art made me legit sporfle - made my whole night.
Oh, Yeollie. YOUR FACE. Here's the thing: I do not think you are a creeper at all, but I confess that may be due in part to the fact that Infinite has rocked my world and my interest in and concern for their EVERYTHING may have grown to my own creeper levels so I might be too close to judge? But when I read this my first thought was OF COURSE you should do it and I WANT TO DO IT TOO and WE SHOULD ALL DO IT and WHERE CAN WE FIND SOMEONE WHO CAN READ IT TO HIM? Because boy is precious and wonderful and just has no idea and he should know. He should know, Lauren. I support you telling him, 100%. Without a speck of irony because I can't with these boys.
... still waiting for the 1080p to load...
*3 minutes pass*
OH MY GOD. I just. How can he be so perfect? I swear no one moves like Dongwoo moves. Or looks at people the way Dongwoo does. His eyes are SO INTENSE. And I know this is completely shallow, but the blue hair for this concept is absolutely the sexiest thing I've laid eyes on in a long time and I have enjoyed every moment of it. I wish it could have lasted forever. Also I would like an HD video of the whole group of that performance because everyone looks ~on.
Mr Blobby made my eyes bug out of my head with WTF.
Congratulations to your parents! My parents are responsible for my love of marriage too, both as an institution and narratively speaking (how are all our narrative kinks the same, I ask?). Our parents are blessed.
Things to do tonight on my first night "off" from the hospital:
1) respond to comments on my journal
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finish reading after the thunder, before the rain and attempt an intelligent comment or two- I better save this for tomorrow night because prob too tired to be intelligent tonight ;P3) watch our boys be silly and adorable together
I just want to say how much I love y'all
The feeling is blindingly, completely mutual, bb.
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I liked Looper? It was quite different from what I was expecting... but now I'm not even sure what I was expecting. It's definitely a lot darker than the trailers make it out to be, and not really a straight forward Hollywood blockbuster-esque type sci-fi movie (not that I should have expected that given the director). I'm not sure if I loved it, or if the story made sense, but I think it's worth watching.
Aww your last paragraph hearts and smiiiiiiiles.
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