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+ It's Friday! Yay! Even though the weeks go by so much faster now than they used to, it's still nice to reach the end of the week and know that I have more at home time for the next couple of days.
+ To celebrate, y'all should watch this performance by the leader of my ridiculous boy band because it is glorious. And not even slightly kpop-y, so if you don't like that kind of music (I mostly don't either, which is hilarious to me), that's okay: you can still like this. It's beautiful. I can't imagine not loving it.
Sometimes when I get in a bad mood I watch Sunggyu's performances on Immortal Song 2 (of which this is one), and then I just feel better about the world because they are all amazing in their own way. Boy is talented.
+ And for your daily dose of sex, here is the love of my life. Watch it in 1080!
+ So last night![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
indiesnopp and I had a brief conversation about how much we worry about Prince Sungyeol. And how we're worried that because he hasn't gotten any acting roles in a while (while his other bandmates, even ones who never expressed any interest in acting at all, have), he's started to give up on his dreams and trying to make himself content with what he has instead of striving for the things he wants. And this just breaks my heart so much because I hate to see that in anyone, but I really hate to see it from someone I care about as much as I care about this child (which I KNOW is ridiculous. I know I don't know him. I know. I can't help it).
And some fan came up with the idea of people making him signs or letters or videos or something to send to him to boost his self-confidence since he's never had any and he keeps talking about how he's working hard to build it but you can tell how discouraged he is. And I'm...really tempted to write a big-sisterly letter to him about how he makes me smile and about how it isn't being dishonest (this kid values honesty SO MUCH) to pretend to have more confidence than you do and how I know how discouraging it can be and to not give up on his dreams, etc. etc. (And obviously I'd have to get someone to translate it, which would be an issue, but.) Which, on the one hand even the fact that I'm considering this is so, so weird to me because he's a stranger and I have never been one to care about celebrities' personal lives at ALL but suddenly I do. And I just feel like such a big sister to these boys and I just want them to be happy and to encourage them. And maybe that's weird? Or pathetic? I don't know.
Do you think that would be weird? It's not coming from a place of weird obsession or anything--if I met these guys I wouldn't squeal or scream or anything. In fact, if I saw them on the street I would pass by because I want them to have private lives. I'm perfectly fine with enjoying them from a distance on their own terms. And yet I have this urge to write this letter, but I don't want to be a creeper. I just don't know.
But LOOK AT THIS PRECIOUS FACE. How can you not want to take him out for coffee and listen to his problems and give him advice and tell him he's wonderful and encourage him?
Ugh. I hope I haven't become a creeper. I really don't want to be. This is one of those cases of my own excessive personality (I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT EVERYTHING SO SO SO MANY YOU REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND) confusing me.
+ Okay, so you know how hipsters are always and forever quoting The Perks of Being a Wallflower and that line "And in that moment I swear we were infinite"? (It feels so weird to me not to capitalize that wordBOYS WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME) Well, the other day redsilverchains asked if someone had ever made a graphic about my Infinite with that quote. So of course I shouted "THIS MUST EXIST!" and I proceeded to make the most godawful ugly hipster art ever with my Infinite boys in their most ridiculous photoshoot, a weirdly colored landscape background AND A TRIANGLE. I am so proud of this, y'all. It got almost no love on tumblr, possibly because people thought it was a serious attempt at art (though how you could think that when one of my tags was TASTE MY COMPLETELY UNIRONIC LOVE FOR A KOREAN BOY BAND, I'm not quite sure), but I am still just so delighted with how absolutely ugly it is and how much it mocks hipster tropes. I am still laughing.
+ Haven't seen Vampire Diaries yet because I went out to dinner last night with the BFF who I hadn't seen in weeks. I think I might avoid tumblr till I get a chance to watch it? Possibly. I'm not really sure. But you can tell me if you liked it or not in the comments if you so wish.
+ I watched the Big Fat Quiz of the 90s the other night, and I swear the last seven minutes are the most hilarious/horrifying thing I have ever seen. I was SCREAMING and laughing and cringing and this isn't even a British cultural artifact that I'm familiar with and it DID NOT MATTER.
+ If anybody sees Argo, let me know how you like it. Looper, too. I'm tempted to go see them, especially Looper because of my Rian Johnson feelings dating back to Brick, but of course only if they're good.
+ As far as reading goes, I read The Devil in the White City and LOVED IT. It's been a while since I gobbled up a book like that and it felt good. This post sums up my experience with reading any of substance that's not fanfiction for the past year or two. I hadn't ever heard anyone else articulate it before, and it made me feel better to know that I'm not alone. I remember the days where I would read two or three books a week, constantly reading, constantly constantly constantly, and I miss that. A lot. But knowing other people sometimes get "reader's block" makes me feel better.
And if you can think of any other nonfiction books that are that easy to read, that interesting, that focused on something random from history, you should totally rec me because I want to read them.
+ My parents have been married for 29 years as of a week or two ago. This makes me ridiculously happy, because they still enjoy each other so much and have such a strong marriage. They've definitely, definitely had rough patches and they fight and hurt each other of course. But even when my friends' parents started divorcing, I never once worried that mine would. I felt really...safe with my parents' marriage, if that makes any sense. I feel like much of my love of the institution of marriage (and my narrative kink for marriage, too) stems from growing up around a good one, one where it was clear they worked very, very hard at maintaining it (not to imply that other people don't work hard and things still don't work out). And if I ever get married myself, I will have so much wisdom to build on, and that is a very great gift. I'm really proud of what they've built. It's really beautiful.
+ To be even more sappy for a brief moment (you know how I am), I just want to say how much I love y'all.kwritten and I have been exploding with love for fandom as community and dialogue with art, etc. lately and for good reason. My friends I've met through fandom have been such a beautiful part of my life--I value my friendship with you as much as I do any "real life" ones. The fact that I can have conversations with you about the nature of art, about how I feel about writing and about how Mr. Blobby makes me laugh/cringe is just one of my greatest pleasures in life. I sometimes feel as though I should feel that I'm lacking something since most of my current friendships that aren't with the BFF/members of my family are all online, but I don't feel that way at all. I get what I need, human-communication-and-connection-wise, from y'all. So thank you for that.
+ To celebrate, y'all should watch this performance by the leader of my ridiculous boy band because it is glorious. And not even slightly kpop-y, so if you don't like that kind of music (I mostly don't either, which is hilarious to me), that's okay: you can still like this. It's beautiful. I can't imagine not loving it.
Sometimes when I get in a bad mood I watch Sunggyu's performances on Immortal Song 2 (of which this is one), and then I just feel better about the world because they are all amazing in their own way. Boy is talented.
+ And for your daily dose of sex, here is the love of my life. Watch it in 1080!
+ So last night
indiesnopp and I had a brief conversation about how much we worry about Prince Sungyeol. And how we're worried that because he hasn't gotten any acting roles in a while (while his other bandmates, even ones who never expressed any interest in acting at all, have), he's started to give up on his dreams and trying to make himself content with what he has instead of striving for the things he wants. And this just breaks my heart so much because I hate to see that in anyone, but I really hate to see it from someone I care about as much as I care about this child (which I KNOW is ridiculous. I know I don't know him. I know. I can't help it). And some fan came up with the idea of people making him signs or letters or videos or something to send to him to boost his self-confidence since he's never had any and he keeps talking about how he's working hard to build it but you can tell how discouraged he is. And I'm...really tempted to write a big-sisterly letter to him about how he makes me smile and about how it isn't being dishonest (this kid values honesty SO MUCH) to pretend to have more confidence than you do and how I know how discouraging it can be and to not give up on his dreams, etc. etc. (And obviously I'd have to get someone to translate it, which would be an issue, but.) Which, on the one hand even the fact that I'm considering this is so, so weird to me because he's a stranger and I have never been one to care about celebrities' personal lives at ALL but suddenly I do. And I just feel like such a big sister to these boys and I just want them to be happy and to encourage them. And maybe that's weird? Or pathetic? I don't know.
Do you think that would be weird? It's not coming from a place of weird obsession or anything--if I met these guys I wouldn't squeal or scream or anything. In fact, if I saw them on the street I would pass by because I want them to have private lives. I'm perfectly fine with enjoying them from a distance on their own terms. And yet I have this urge to write this letter, but I don't want to be a creeper. I just don't know.
But LOOK AT THIS PRECIOUS FACE. How can you not want to take him out for coffee and listen to his problems and give him advice and tell him he's wonderful and encourage him?
Ugh. I hope I haven't become a creeper. I really don't want to be. This is one of those cases of my own excessive personality (I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT EVERYTHING SO SO SO MANY YOU REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND) confusing me.
+ Okay, so you know how hipsters are always and forever quoting The Perks of Being a Wallflower and that line "And in that moment I swear we were infinite"? (It feels so weird to me not to capitalize that word
redsilverchains asked if someone had ever made a graphic about my Infinite with that quote. So of course I shouted "THIS MUST EXIST!" and I proceeded to make the most godawful ugly hipster art ever with my Infinite boys in their most ridiculous photoshoot, a weirdly colored landscape background AND A TRIANGLE. I am so proud of this, y'all. It got almost no love on tumblr, possibly because people thought it was a serious attempt at art (though how you could think that when one of my tags was TASTE MY COMPLETELY UNIRONIC LOVE FOR A KOREAN BOY BAND, I'm not quite sure), but I am still just so delighted with how absolutely ugly it is and how much it mocks hipster tropes. I am still laughing.+ Haven't seen Vampire Diaries yet because I went out to dinner last night with the BFF who I hadn't seen in weeks. I think I might avoid tumblr till I get a chance to watch it? Possibly. I'm not really sure. But you can tell me if you liked it or not in the comments if you so wish.
+ I watched the Big Fat Quiz of the 90s the other night, and I swear the last seven minutes are the most hilarious/horrifying thing I have ever seen. I was SCREAMING and laughing and cringing and this isn't even a British cultural artifact that I'm familiar with and it DID NOT MATTER.
+ If anybody sees Argo, let me know how you like it. Looper, too. I'm tempted to go see them, especially Looper because of my Rian Johnson feelings dating back to Brick, but of course only if they're good.
+ As far as reading goes, I read The Devil in the White City and LOVED IT. It's been a while since I gobbled up a book like that and it felt good. This post sums up my experience with reading any of substance that's not fanfiction for the past year or two. I hadn't ever heard anyone else articulate it before, and it made me feel better to know that I'm not alone. I remember the days where I would read two or three books a week, constantly reading, constantly constantly constantly, and I miss that. A lot. But knowing other people sometimes get "reader's block" makes me feel better.
And if you can think of any other nonfiction books that are that easy to read, that interesting, that focused on something random from history, you should totally rec me because I want to read them.
+ My parents have been married for 29 years as of a week or two ago. This makes me ridiculously happy, because they still enjoy each other so much and have such a strong marriage. They've definitely, definitely had rough patches and they fight and hurt each other of course. But even when my friends' parents started divorcing, I never once worried that mine would. I felt really...safe with my parents' marriage, if that makes any sense. I feel like much of my love of the institution of marriage (and my narrative kink for marriage, too) stems from growing up around a good one, one where it was clear they worked very, very hard at maintaining it (not to imply that other people don't work hard and things still don't work out). And if I ever get married myself, I will have so much wisdom to build on, and that is a very great gift. I'm really proud of what they've built. It's really beautiful.
+ To be even more sappy for a brief moment (you know how I am), I just want to say how much I love y'all.
kwritten and I have been exploding with love for fandom as community and dialogue with art, etc. lately and for good reason. My friends I've met through fandom have been such a beautiful part of my life--I value my friendship with you as much as I do any "real life" ones. The fact that I can have conversations with you about the nature of art, about how I feel about writing and about how Mr. Blobby makes me laugh/cringe is just one of my greatest pleasures in life. I sometimes feel as though I should feel that I'm lacking something since most of my current friendships that aren't with the BFF/members of my family are all online, but I don't feel that way at all. I get what I need, human-communication-and-connection-wise, from y'all. So thank you for that.