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some things
+ First of all: I have been really, really bad at checking my flist lately. Sometimes I go to do it and it just feels like to much to scroll through it all. But the thing is: I want to engage with y'all, so if you ever have anything that you post that you think I might be interested in/that you want me to check out PLEASE tell me. Don't think of it as imposing on me at all--it isn't. As a matter of fact, it's so much easier for me to be given a link or even a "I just posted something new; you should check it out!" and get to your entry that way. So leave a comment on any post in my journal, send me a private message, email me, nudge me on tumblr--anything! I've been embarrassingly late to several posts lately because of my mental health stuff and I feel bad.
+ As always, the worst part of being an adult is the never-endingness of it all. As soon as I take care of this responsibility or that one, another three pop up. It's not like I can do everything I need to do get caught up and then take a breather for a while before the next thing comes. IT'S EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME. And my mental health issues make it so much harder to deal with because I have to have time to psych myself up before I do anything--even paying a bill online. It makes no sense but it is what it is. And since I'm edging perilously close to 26 (which seems so much more adult to me than 25 for some reason--maybe because I'm no longer in my early-20s omg that's terrifying I still feel exactly like I did when I was 16) I just feel like I'm never going to breeze through the adulthood thing the way I wish I could. Ugh.
+ So while I have obviously abandoned my original-novel-writing for NaNo, I did write 50,000 words this month! I mean, it was all fic (most of it gender!swap porn because I am me), but still! That's a lot of words! I'm proud of me! Now if only I could fuel all of that into my original fiction...bleck.
+ All of a sudden I cannot log into tumblr at work. Every time I click on the login link, it pops up briefly and before I can even type in my email address much less my password, it flips back to the homepage. IT IS SO FRUSTRATING. UUUUUUGH. I'm sure it has something to do with the fact that we're still on IE here at work (which would be hilarious if it weren't ridiculous), but it just happened so suddenly--yesterday it was fine and now it isn't. I cleared out the cache and that still didn't help. And I am reminded of just how awful my tumblr-addiction is and this is probably a good thing. But I really wanted to tell Infinite fandom something!
+ I really hate the new updates page here. I'm using the old one till they pry it from my cold dead hands. Why do they think adding flash (or whatever it is) to everything is a good idea?
+ THE HOUR IS SO GOOD OMG SO GOOD SO GOOD SO GOOD. I just love that show so much and I thought there was no way it would be as good as last season but it totally is (plus bonus new ship and Marnie being a hbic!). Glorious show!
+ New Girl is also still good and Jess and Nick should just get married already. And Happy Endings continues to be crazy and delightful. The Good Wife is still pretty solid, Kalinda plotline aside (I hear they're going to be writing that one out quickly which THANK YOU). I think those are all the things I'm watching consistently at the moment?
+ Totally caught up on Lizzie Bennet Diaries and if you aren't watching it you definitely should be. I lovelovelove all the choices they're making adaptation-wise (especially with updating modern things that you wouldn't think would translate well to the new setting) and the actors are all so endearing and it's smart without being pretentious. Even if you're not an Austen fan, I think you'll still enjoy it. I like Austen but am not crazy about her, but I'm crazy about this.
Here are my three favorite (non-spoilery) things about it so far:
1. The fact that it's basically a study in introvert vs. extrovert. I don't think that any other version has done such a good job showing that the basic problem in the Lizzie-Darcy relationship is that Darcy is HUGELY SOCIALLY AWKWARD and doesn't know how to put people at their ease (because he's not at ease) and Lizzie misunderstands how aloofness and thinks it comes from arrogance and THAT IS THE WHOLE PROBLEM. I lovelovelove it.
2. The characterizations. For one thing, Lizzie is lovely and wonderful but she also makes BIG MISTAKES and can be mean sometimes. I love that they really show her flaws instead of making her some perfect heroine. On the other end of the spectrum we have the characters who are treated so very well--Lydia's always been a vivid character, but here she's lovable and adorbs(!) and you see so much more going on with her and I just love her to death. And Caroline! Instead of just being a stuck-up villain, she seems very real to me--even when she's not being nice, I still really understand her and care about her. And Ricky Collins is hysterical omg instead of odious. Basically it's all sunshine and lollipops.
3. The lady relationships!!!! SO MANY OF THEM. THEY'RE SO IMPORTANT. YAY!
+ Saw Skyfall, had some problems with it, but I still really enjoyed the overall experience even though I understand why some people weren't happy with it. Want a Moneypenny movie. Ben Wishaw should be in everything.
+ Question: is Idris Elba really officially being considered to be the next Bond or is that just an internet thing that ran away with itself? Because YES PLEASE.
+ Thanksgiving was good. A nice break and REALLY GOOD FOOD and some quieter family times.
+ Here, have a song off of Sunggyu's solo album. It's not even slightly kpop-y and is also excellent! Featuring a badass lady bassist and Kim Myungsoo's stupid face/horrible acting! Everything I love in life, pretty much!
+ As always, the worst part of being an adult is the never-endingness of it all. As soon as I take care of this responsibility or that one, another three pop up. It's not like I can do everything I need to do get caught up and then take a breather for a while before the next thing comes. IT'S EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME. And my mental health issues make it so much harder to deal with because I have to have time to psych myself up before I do anything--even paying a bill online. It makes no sense but it is what it is. And since I'm edging perilously close to 26 (which seems so much more adult to me than 25 for some reason--maybe because I'm no longer in my early-20s omg that's terrifying I still feel exactly like I did when I was 16) I just feel like I'm never going to breeze through the adulthood thing the way I wish I could. Ugh.
+ So while I have obviously abandoned my original-novel-writing for NaNo, I did write 50,000 words this month! I mean, it was all fic (most of it gender!swap porn because I am me), but still! That's a lot of words! I'm proud of me! Now if only I could fuel all of that into my original fiction...bleck.
+ All of a sudden I cannot log into tumblr at work. Every time I click on the login link, it pops up briefly and before I can even type in my email address much less my password, it flips back to the homepage. IT IS SO FRUSTRATING. UUUUUUGH. I'm sure it has something to do with the fact that we're still on IE here at work (which would be hilarious if it weren't ridiculous), but it just happened so suddenly--yesterday it was fine and now it isn't. I cleared out the cache and that still didn't help. And I am reminded of just how awful my tumblr-addiction is and this is probably a good thing. But I really wanted to tell Infinite fandom something!
+ I really hate the new updates page here. I'm using the old one till they pry it from my cold dead hands. Why do they think adding flash (or whatever it is) to everything is a good idea?
+ THE HOUR IS SO GOOD OMG SO GOOD SO GOOD SO GOOD. I just love that show so much and I thought there was no way it would be as good as last season but it totally is (plus bonus new ship and Marnie being a hbic!). Glorious show!
+ New Girl is also still good and Jess and Nick should just get married already. And Happy Endings continues to be crazy and delightful. The Good Wife is still pretty solid, Kalinda plotline aside (I hear they're going to be writing that one out quickly which THANK YOU). I think those are all the things I'm watching consistently at the moment?
+ Totally caught up on Lizzie Bennet Diaries and if you aren't watching it you definitely should be. I lovelovelove all the choices they're making adaptation-wise (especially with updating modern things that you wouldn't think would translate well to the new setting) and the actors are all so endearing and it's smart without being pretentious. Even if you're not an Austen fan, I think you'll still enjoy it. I like Austen but am not crazy about her, but I'm crazy about this.
Here are my three favorite (non-spoilery) things about it so far:
1. The fact that it's basically a study in introvert vs. extrovert. I don't think that any other version has done such a good job showing that the basic problem in the Lizzie-Darcy relationship is that Darcy is HUGELY SOCIALLY AWKWARD and doesn't know how to put people at their ease (because he's not at ease) and Lizzie misunderstands how aloofness and thinks it comes from arrogance and THAT IS THE WHOLE PROBLEM. I lovelovelove it.
2. The characterizations. For one thing, Lizzie is lovely and wonderful but she also makes BIG MISTAKES and can be mean sometimes. I love that they really show her flaws instead of making her some perfect heroine. On the other end of the spectrum we have the characters who are treated so very well--Lydia's always been a vivid character, but here she's lovable and adorbs(!) and you see so much more going on with her and I just love her to death. And Caroline! Instead of just being a stuck-up villain, she seems very real to me--even when she's not being nice, I still really understand her and care about her. And Ricky Collins is hysterical omg instead of odious. Basically it's all sunshine and lollipops.
3. The lady relationships!!!! SO MANY OF THEM. THEY'RE SO IMPORTANT. YAY!
+ Saw Skyfall, had some problems with it, but I still really enjoyed the overall experience even though I understand why some people weren't happy with it. Want a Moneypenny movie. Ben Wishaw should be in everything.
+ Question: is Idris Elba really officially being considered to be the next Bond or is that just an internet thing that ran away with itself? Because YES PLEASE.
+ Thanksgiving was good. A nice break and REALLY GOOD FOOD and some quieter family times.
+ Here, have a song off of Sunggyu's solo album. It's not even slightly kpop-y and is also excellent! Featuring a badass lady bassist and Kim Myungsoo's stupid face/horrible acting! Everything I love in life, pretty much!
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Oh darling :( you do what you need to do. If that's starring at pretty faces because it brings you joy well then it's starring at pretty faces please please and thank you. No but really, especially if you're struggling with depression (if I understood that well--otherwise please smack me) you shouldn't pile on to the guilt of not having done enough. You do so much for your our corner of fandom and I don't think you even realize how much. I don't want to go all emo on you, but let's just say that your contributions to fandom are insanely generous.
And my mental health issues make it so much harder to deal with because I have to have time to psych myself up before I do anything--even paying a bill online.
*shifts uneasily* I relate to this a lot more than I like to admit and I'm so so sorry that you have to battle yourself daily and that this makes the littlest things look so terrifying ((hugs you and hugs you and hugs you))
The fact that it's basically a study in introvert vs. extrovert.
Y E S ! ! !
I have never loved a thing more. Same with the relationship between Lizzie/Charlotte/camera. In love with it.
Lydia is flaw free and azùsjùalhùd I cannot get over her and Mary. PRINCESSES OF MY HEART, HOW ARE THEY SO PERFECT!?
Also, Caroline ♥ ♥ I love her so much! Why did she have to leeeave so soon always be on my screen!!!
Charlotte. Charlotte. Charlotte.
The lady relationships!!!! SO MANY OF THEM. THEY'RE SO IMPORTANT. YAY!
The best thing about this show. THE SISTERS. THE COUSINS. THE BFFS. THE RIVALS. Everything is glorious. I love it. I love it. I love it.
OH GOD. That. Video. Still not over it. Still haven't reached the point where I can watch it with a straight face. Oh, Myungsoo...
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You did! I have deal with depression/anxiety issues on and off throughout my life. My depression is mostly under control at this point, but something (whether the anxiety or the depression) flares up sometimes to the point where I let my mail pile up because I can't muster up the emotional energy to go through it. My flist sometimes feels the same way.
And thank you for your lovely kind words--you are so sweet to me and I can't tell you how much that means to me!
I hate that you can relate to my issues, but I appreciate the hugs and hugs and hugs and send them right back to you!
Same with the relationship between Lizzie/Charlotte/camera. In love with it.
SO META AND BEAUTIFUL.
Still haven't reached the point where I can watch it with a straight face. Oh, Myungsoo...
I know! He has the most beautiful face in creation and he's such a sweet, wonderful boy but he's so bad at acting and it's kind of delightful just because he's such a cutie pie!