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+ First of all: I have been really, really bad at checking my flist lately. Sometimes I go to do it and it just feels like to much to scroll through it all. But the thing is: I want to engage with y'all, so if you ever have anything that you post that you think I might be interested in/that you want me to check out PLEASE tell me. Don't think of it as imposing on me at all--it isn't. As a matter of fact, it's so much easier for me to be given a link or even a "I just posted something new; you should check it out!" and get to your entry that way. So leave a comment on any post in my journal, send me a private message, email me, nudge me on tumblr--anything! I've been embarrassingly late to several posts lately because of my mental health stuff and I feel bad.
+ As always, the worst part of being an adult is the never-endingness of it all. As soon as I take care of this responsibility or that one, another three pop up. It's not like I can do everything I need to do get caught up and then take a breather for a while before the next thing comes. IT'S EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME. And my mental health issues make it so much harder to deal with because I have to have time to psych myself up before I do anything--even paying a bill online. It makes no sense but it is what it is. And since I'm edging perilously close to 26 (which seems so much more adult to me than 25 for some reason--maybe because I'm no longer in my early-20s omg that's terrifying I still feel exactly like I did when I was 16) I just feel like I'm never going to breeze through the adulthood thing the way I wish I could. Ugh.
+ So while I have obviously abandoned my original-novel-writing for NaNo, I did write 50,000 words this month! I mean, it was all fic (most of it gender!swap porn because I am me), but still! That's a lot of words! I'm proud of me! Now if only I could fuel all of that into my original fiction...bleck.
+ All of a sudden I cannot log into tumblr at work. Every time I click on the login link, it pops up briefly and before I can even type in my email address much less my password, it flips back to the homepage. IT IS SO FRUSTRATING. UUUUUUGH. I'm sure it has something to do with the fact that we're still on IE here at work (which would be hilarious if it weren't ridiculous), but it just happened so suddenly--yesterday it was fine and now it isn't. I cleared out the cache and that still didn't help. And I am reminded of just how awful my tumblr-addiction is and this is probably a good thing. But I really wanted to tell Infinite fandom something!
+ I really hate the new updates page here. I'm using the old one till they pry it from my cold dead hands. Why do they think adding flash (or whatever it is) to everything is a good idea?
+ THE HOUR IS SO GOOD OMG SO GOOD SO GOOD SO GOOD. I just love that show so much and I thought there was no way it would be as good as last season but it totally is (plus bonus new ship and Marnie being a hbic!). Glorious show!
+ New Girl is also still good and Jess and Nick should just get married already. And Happy Endings continues to be crazy and delightful. The Good Wife is still pretty solid, Kalinda plotline aside (I hear they're going to be writing that one out quickly which THANK YOU). I think those are all the things I'm watching consistently at the moment?
+ Totally caught up on Lizzie Bennet Diaries and if you aren't watching it you definitely should be. I lovelovelove all the choices they're making adaptation-wise (especially with updating modern things that you wouldn't think would translate well to the new setting) and the actors are all so endearing and it's smart without being pretentious. Even if you're not an Austen fan, I think you'll still enjoy it. I like Austen but am not crazy about her, but I'm crazy about this.
Here are my three favorite (non-spoilery) things about it so far:
1. The fact that it's basically a study in introvert vs. extrovert. I don't think that any other version has done such a good job showing that the basic problem in the Lizzie-Darcy relationship is that Darcy is HUGELY SOCIALLY AWKWARD and doesn't know how to put people at their ease (because he's not at ease) and Lizzie misunderstands how aloofness and thinks it comes from arrogance and THAT IS THE WHOLE PROBLEM. I lovelovelove it.
2. The characterizations. For one thing, Lizzie is lovely and wonderful but she also makes BIG MISTAKES and can be mean sometimes. I love that they really show her flaws instead of making her some perfect heroine. On the other end of the spectrum we have the characters who are treated so very well--Lydia's always been a vivid character, but here she's lovable and adorbs(!) and you see so much more going on with her and I just love her to death. And Caroline! Instead of just being a stuck-up villain, she seems very real to me--even when she's not being nice, I still really understand her and care about her. And Ricky Collins is hysterical omg instead of odious. Basically it's all sunshine and lollipops.
3. The lady relationships!!!! SO MANY OF THEM. THEY'RE SO IMPORTANT. YAY!
+ Saw Skyfall, had some problems with it, but I still really enjoyed the overall experience even though I understand why some people weren't happy with it. Want a Moneypenny movie. Ben Wishaw should be in everything.
+ Question: is Idris Elba really officially being considered to be the next Bond or is that just an internet thing that ran away with itself? Because YES PLEASE.
+ Thanksgiving was good. A nice break and REALLY GOOD FOOD and some quieter family times.
+ Here, have a song off of Sunggyu's solo album. It's not even slightly kpop-y and is also excellent! Featuring a badass lady bassist and Kim Myungsoo's stupid face/horrible acting! Everything I love in life, pretty much!
+ As always, the worst part of being an adult is the never-endingness of it all. As soon as I take care of this responsibility or that one, another three pop up. It's not like I can do everything I need to do get caught up and then take a breather for a while before the next thing comes. IT'S EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME. And my mental health issues make it so much harder to deal with because I have to have time to psych myself up before I do anything--even paying a bill online. It makes no sense but it is what it is. And since I'm edging perilously close to 26 (which seems so much more adult to me than 25 for some reason--maybe because I'm no longer in my early-20s omg that's terrifying I still feel exactly like I did when I was 16) I just feel like I'm never going to breeze through the adulthood thing the way I wish I could. Ugh.
+ So while I have obviously abandoned my original-novel-writing for NaNo, I did write 50,000 words this month! I mean, it was all fic (most of it gender!swap porn because I am me), but still! That's a lot of words! I'm proud of me! Now if only I could fuel all of that into my original fiction...bleck.
+ All of a sudden I cannot log into tumblr at work. Every time I click on the login link, it pops up briefly and before I can even type in my email address much less my password, it flips back to the homepage. IT IS SO FRUSTRATING. UUUUUUGH. I'm sure it has something to do with the fact that we're still on IE here at work (which would be hilarious if it weren't ridiculous), but it just happened so suddenly--yesterday it was fine and now it isn't. I cleared out the cache and that still didn't help. And I am reminded of just how awful my tumblr-addiction is and this is probably a good thing. But I really wanted to tell Infinite fandom something!
+ I really hate the new updates page here. I'm using the old one till they pry it from my cold dead hands. Why do they think adding flash (or whatever it is) to everything is a good idea?
+ THE HOUR IS SO GOOD OMG SO GOOD SO GOOD SO GOOD. I just love that show so much and I thought there was no way it would be as good as last season but it totally is (plus bonus new ship and Marnie being a hbic!). Glorious show!
+ New Girl is also still good and Jess and Nick should just get married already. And Happy Endings continues to be crazy and delightful. The Good Wife is still pretty solid, Kalinda plotline aside (I hear they're going to be writing that one out quickly which THANK YOU). I think those are all the things I'm watching consistently at the moment?
+ Totally caught up on Lizzie Bennet Diaries and if you aren't watching it you definitely should be. I lovelovelove all the choices they're making adaptation-wise (especially with updating modern things that you wouldn't think would translate well to the new setting) and the actors are all so endearing and it's smart without being pretentious. Even if you're not an Austen fan, I think you'll still enjoy it. I like Austen but am not crazy about her, but I'm crazy about this.
Here are my three favorite (non-spoilery) things about it so far:
1. The fact that it's basically a study in introvert vs. extrovert. I don't think that any other version has done such a good job showing that the basic problem in the Lizzie-Darcy relationship is that Darcy is HUGELY SOCIALLY AWKWARD and doesn't know how to put people at their ease (because he's not at ease) and Lizzie misunderstands how aloofness and thinks it comes from arrogance and THAT IS THE WHOLE PROBLEM. I lovelovelove it.
2. The characterizations. For one thing, Lizzie is lovely and wonderful but she also makes BIG MISTAKES and can be mean sometimes. I love that they really show her flaws instead of making her some perfect heroine. On the other end of the spectrum we have the characters who are treated so very well--Lydia's always been a vivid character, but here she's lovable and adorbs(!) and you see so much more going on with her and I just love her to death. And Caroline! Instead of just being a stuck-up villain, she seems very real to me--even when she's not being nice, I still really understand her and care about her. And Ricky Collins is hysterical omg instead of odious. Basically it's all sunshine and lollipops.
3. The lady relationships!!!! SO MANY OF THEM. THEY'RE SO IMPORTANT. YAY!
+ Saw Skyfall, had some problems with it, but I still really enjoyed the overall experience even though I understand why some people weren't happy with it. Want a Moneypenny movie. Ben Wishaw should be in everything.
+ Question: is Idris Elba really officially being considered to be the next Bond or is that just an internet thing that ran away with itself? Because YES PLEASE.
+ Thanksgiving was good. A nice break and REALLY GOOD FOOD and some quieter family times.
+ Here, have a song off of Sunggyu's solo album. It's not even slightly kpop-y and is also excellent! Featuring a badass lady bassist and Kim Myungsoo's stupid face/horrible acting! Everything I love in life, pretty much!
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Congratulations on 50k! WHOA! You win :D.
I'm mostly being boring (aka posting mostly about TVD, and you're not caught up yet, are you?). BUT I WILL BE POSTING A FICLET EVERY DAY FOR THE WHOLE DECEMBER OMG. It looks like I'll actually be able to do it this time. And I already finished the ficlet you prompted, it's tucked safely in my scheduled entries on lj :D.
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I am always wiling to be distracted with pretty! What do you have in mind? :D
THANK YOU!
I am not caught up, no! Also a mental health thing, I think--even starting on a new show seems like too much somehow? But when I do, I will definitely wander through your posts.
THAT IS AWESOME. You should be so proud! I could never do that--I know I'd leave half of them unfinished, so you should be super proud!
How's the weather in Middle-Earth? Still having roommate problems?
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I get like that sometimes :(. Please, don't stress over missing fandom stuff. I'm sure everyone understands.
I didn't have anything specific in mind, but I can think of something :).
Yep, starting a show sometimes just seems like such an effort. But hey, it's not like you're in a rush or something :).
I am proud! I also hope I'll be able to actually complete all the prompts. So far, I wrote 10 stories out of 30, and today I need to finish one that I'm posting on Sunday. So it's not like I'll be writing every day, I've been preparing this for quite some time now.
Middle-Earth is getting cold :). Roommate problems seem to have solved themselves (except for the TERRIBLE MESS people leave in MY KITCHEN, which will probably never be solved, because people ;) ).
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Thank you! I do like to keep up though, because it makes me happy. It's just that the going through the flist is too much. *sigh*
:D
So far, I wrote 10 stories out of 30, and today I need to finish one that I'm posting on Sunday. So it's not like I'll be writing every day, I've been preparing this for quite some time now.
That's awesome that you started so early. I am awful at doing that, but that will help out a lot for you to get them all done!
I'm sure it is getting cold! It's getting cold here and we have a warmer climate!
I am very glad to hear things have worked out, but I'm sorry about the kitchen. Grossness!
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Noted :). I'll drop you a link to that story for you when it's posted (ha, I even wrote it without mentioning s4!), and also I think I'll have one more you'd enjoy (a BtVS/TVD crossover happened, and I'm quite happy with it, even though it's just a few hundred words).
The prompts were awesome, so it wasn't even a chore to start early :).
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I HATE it, especially since there's all these little symbols you have to try and figure out what the devil they do. Bah!
Sending along good and peppy vibes asap!
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Thank you so much! ♥
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omg that's terrifying I still feel exactly like I did when I was 16
I have this whole problem with ages where I'm pretty sure I'm either the age of or younger than every person I speak to. Not true (less true lately) and I've just decided to go with it. Stay feeling 16 if it feels good!
Dude. YEAY on the 50,000 words. You are a flippin' rockstar. ♥
I really hate the new updates page here. I'm using the old one till they pry it from my cold dead hands.
I am blissfully ignorant. There's a note at the top of my page that keeps asking me if I want to switch over and I just flat out refuse to click on it.
Everything you have to say about LBD is TRUTH.
How is Sungyu even real? Or Myungsoo? So much love in this video!
((hugs))
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I have this whole problem with ages where I'm pretty sure I'm either the age of or younger than every person I speak to. Not true (less true lately) and I've just decided to go with it.
That is really, really cute!
Thanks! ♥
There's a note at the top of my page that keeps asking me if I want to switch over and I just flat out refuse to click on it.
For some reason it changed over without my consent these past two days and I have opt into the old one.
LBD IS JOY.
How is Sungyu even real? Or Myungsoo? So much love in this video!
I know! I'm so delighted by the video! Even by Myungsoo's awful acting but LOOK AT THAT BOY'S FACE.
*hugs*
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I'm a derp. Seriously. I am constantly shocked by the ages of people. You can put me in a room full of 16 year olds or a room full of 50 year olds and I'll come away completely convinced that everyone in the room was the same age as me.
I once was at a roller rink with a couple of my girlfriends and became like - ridiculously FASCINATED by this beautiful girl who was skating alone. She was all with the spins and tricks and the adorable face and style. And I was just totally enraptured, kk? Then, everyone is divided by age groups for speed-skating. SHE WAS IN THE 18 & UNDER GROUP. I felt like the world's biggest pervy dork. #what even
LBD IS JOY.
Are you ridiculously anxious for Gigi to be introduced? Because I am like - ecstatic with the anticipation of this girl's presence.
Also - I didn't say it before (because I'm pretending to ~write and not let lj infect my day, but who am I joking?) but I *also* am really happy with the way they are portraying the introvert vs. the extrovert (and also making it so painfully clear how similar they are) ... but MOSTLY how - since we get Charlotte, Lydia, and Jane - Lizzie is not on any sort of pedestal, she's completely fleshed out and actually pretty awful in the best ways.
Completely random anecdote: Yesterday I was having a bizarre ~Lizzie day. One of those days where you just want to walk and walk and walk forever? I was convinced that I had too much to do, so I just walked straight home from the bus instead (in hindsight - I wish I had just kept walking b/c I ended up [raging] over slob-roommates and then cleaned the house in a fury ... which means I had no energy to do all the things) ... ANYWAY. Do you ever have those days? I love them to itty bitty bits.
I'm delighted by the video but was MASSIVELY confused the first time through (I get way too distracted by Sungyu being a little drama queen with his microphone. What is that, anyway??)
*ahem* (what even is this comment?)
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This is hilarious and endearing!
Then, everyone is divided by age groups for speed-skating. SHE WAS IN THE 18 & UNDER GROUP. I felt like the world's biggest pervy dork.
Haha!
I'M JUST SO EXCITED ABOUT GIGI YES. There's no way she isn't the most adorable and won't it be so cute to see her with her brother omg!
Lizzie is not on any sort of pedestal, she's completely fleshed out and actually pretty awful in the best ways.
YES.
I actually do have walking days! Although mostly it's when an abundance of happy energy builds up inside me from something that I love and then I just don't know what to do except walk it off!
(I get way too distracted by Sungyu being a little drama queen with his microphone. What is that, anyway??)
Sunggyu/mic stand otp. Have you seen him perform 'Because' live? You should see that. He is such a drama queen I love it!
It is a comment of DELIGHT.
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+ Gigi stanning has already begun. My heart!!!
+ I LOVE that! Happy walking days are so lovely, aren't they? I just love them. I get them in Autumn mostly - and it is only JUST NOW starting to get orange and yellow in my city.
+ I will investigate tonight when I get home!
+ haha - I'm glad you think so
XOXO
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+ 26 sounds young and free to me now. 341 days until I'm 30. That's a scary concept.
+ Writing is writing. GO YOU!
+ I sometimes hate livejournal. Snick said something somewhere about a new platform coming sometime in the future where the text of LJ and the visuals of Tumblr can be combined to create a cohesive place for fandom to exist. No idea what it's going to be, but it's a pleasant thought.
+ The Hour is on my list!
+ New Girl kind of isn't!
+ And I may or may not be having a sick day primarily to watch The Lizzie Bennett Diaries. True story.
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+ Moving into the second half of your twenties is weird, isn't it?
+ Thank you!
+ I sometimes hate it, too. That platform sounds interesting, though.
+ THE HOUR IS SO GOOD.
+ New Girl is actually lovely, which took me by surprise, but of course no one can watch everything.
+ THIS IS A GOOD USE OF A SICK DAY.
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Elba is so cool. He needs to be the next James Bond, but first I want my Luther back.
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AGREED! :D
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Somehow, "because I am am me" is justifying different activities for you then it used to... :D
I have been dinking around, writing things, the usual. My journal hasn't been all that exciting lately to anyone except active SPN fandom type people. There was a lot of whingeing about my reversebang fic, but that's posted now, and I'm actually almost caught up with writing.
However, some links perhaps you will be interested in:
Also, I made a post recently about how LJ dying and feedback/comments are down etc etc, which may or may not be relevant to your interests.
Speaking of the reversebang, it is FINISHED. So I know SPN RPF is not your bag, but if angsty grief-stricken post-apocalyptic threesomes might interest you (who am I kidding I KNOW THEY DO), then you might enjoy it.
Yep. That's what I'm up to lately. It's lovely to see you around, be it ever so briefly!
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Haha, I know! I think the gender!swap is pretty in character for a while now, but the porn is a whole new thing!
dinking around
I read that as "drinking around," and I thought, "That doesn't sound like her...." Ha!
Congrats on all the writing you've gotten done! I think I'm going to read your RBB sometime when I have the time because I don't have to know the canon for it and I like your writing! And I just wrote that line before I even read your invitation to read it! You know me too well!
angsty grief-stricken post-apocalyptic threesomes might interest you (who am I kidding I KNOW THEY DO),
THEY DO!!!!
Thank you for the links! I will check things out!
It's lovely to see you, too!
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I know what it's like when even the most basic tasks in life are just...really hard to perform for some reason. I hope you feel better soon *huggles*
am I the only one who really loves Tanner?
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really hard to perform for some reason
Yes, exactly. Thank you so much! *huggles back*
am I the only one who really loves Tanner?
I'm not sure what this means?
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Also these weeks have been murder, because I spend more time at the hospital and loosing sleep than I do anything else.I really do want to write Minha/Sungjong and then Narsha/Sunggyu crack though xD (You're gonna have to tell me everything you want included if you do have something!)
Now it's only piecing my brain because the only thing missing from the sufbb!fic is this chunk in Part2 uuugh OTHERWISE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN POSTED IN ONE GO.
Tanner! from Bond! M's sassy sidekick!
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Ugh, I'm sorry about the hospital and lack of sleep. That sucks.
I really do want to write Minha/Sungjong and then Narsha/Sunggyu crack though
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
Now it's only piecing my brain because the only thing missing from the sufbb!fic is this chunk in Part2 uuugh OTHERWISE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN POSTED IN ONE GO
I have so been there! That always sucks when there's just this one part you can't get right! Ugh!
[eta] For some reason lj posted this comment when I wasn't done with it yet. CURSE YOU LJ.
Aha! I didn't remember his name! Yes, I liked the sassy sidekick, too! More of him!
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Lizzie Bennet Diaries is the best thing! I've been following it since the beginning, since I'm a big fan of the vlogbrothers, but I never expected to love it so much. I didn't really like Pride and Prejudice when I read it (which was a while ago) but this show keeps surprising me with its wonderfulness. I totally agree about the characterization, even though I don't remember much from the novel, I still really appreciate that they take the time to develop and make you love all of the characters.
Gyu gee gee! Not my type of music really, but the lady bassist is indeed badass. I love her.
Oh, btw, I started Shut Up Flower Boy Band today! I've only seen two episodes (and I was spoiled for the Byunghee thing) so I don't have many feelings yet, but I am ~intrigued~ and looking forward to where they're going to take it. :)
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I'm a vlogbrothers fan, too, so I started it several months ago but then got behind and only recently caught back up. Yay for LBD!
I love the lady bassist!
!!!!!! So excited!!!! I hope you love it!
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Oh darling :( you do what you need to do. If that's starring at pretty faces because it brings you joy well then it's starring at pretty faces please please and thank you. No but really, especially if you're struggling with depression (if I understood that well--otherwise please smack me) you shouldn't pile on to the guilt of not having done enough. You do so much for your our corner of fandom and I don't think you even realize how much. I don't want to go all emo on you, but let's just say that your contributions to fandom are insanely generous.
And my mental health issues make it so much harder to deal with because I have to have time to psych myself up before I do anything--even paying a bill online.
*shifts uneasily* I relate to this a lot more than I like to admit and I'm so so sorry that you have to battle yourself daily and that this makes the littlest things look so terrifying ((hugs you and hugs you and hugs you))
The fact that it's basically a study in introvert vs. extrovert.
Y E S ! ! !
I have never loved a thing more. Same with the relationship between Lizzie/Charlotte/camera. In love with it.
Lydia is flaw free and azùsjùalhùd I cannot get over her and Mary. PRINCESSES OF MY HEART, HOW ARE THEY SO PERFECT!?
Also, Caroline ♥ ♥ I love her so much! Why did she have to leeeave so soon always be on my screen!!!
Charlotte. Charlotte. Charlotte.
The lady relationships!!!! SO MANY OF THEM. THEY'RE SO IMPORTANT. YAY!
The best thing about this show. THE SISTERS. THE COUSINS. THE BFFS. THE RIVALS. Everything is glorious. I love it. I love it. I love it.
OH GOD. That. Video. Still not over it. Still haven't reached the point where I can watch it with a straight face. Oh, Myungsoo...
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You did! I have deal with depression/anxiety issues on and off throughout my life. My depression is mostly under control at this point, but something (whether the anxiety or the depression) flares up sometimes to the point where I let my mail pile up because I can't muster up the emotional energy to go through it. My flist sometimes feels the same way.
And thank you for your lovely kind words--you are so sweet to me and I can't tell you how much that means to me!
I hate that you can relate to my issues, but I appreciate the hugs and hugs and hugs and send them right back to you!
Same with the relationship between Lizzie/Charlotte/camera. In love with it.
SO META AND BEAUTIFUL.
Still haven't reached the point where I can watch it with a straight face. Oh, Myungsoo...
I know! He has the most beautiful face in creation and he's such a sweet, wonderful boy but he's so bad at acting and it's kind of delightful just because he's such a cutie pie!
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I'm such a big fan of Darcy in this adaptation (well, I'm a fan of Darcy in all adaptations I always find something to love). My very favourite thing about Darcy is his social awkwardness - this is not the swoonworthy hero of your dreams ladies - and this version is capturing that very nicely, even with so very little on-screen Darcy (thanks Jane!Darcy). And my other favourite thing about this story is that it's fundamentally about Lizzie misinterpreting things and learning to perceive things in a different way. My favourite line in the book is "Until that moment I never knew myself", and I'm so, so happy with this series' interpretation of Lizzie as an unreliable narrator of her own life, and how it looks like she is going to learn and grow. The form is doing such wonderful things to the narrative I can't get over it! And yes, the fleshing out of characters like Lydia, Charlotte, and Caroline is SUPER IMPORTANT and really, really great to see. God, I have just loved this story for SO LONG that I just want to openly sob about what a great interpretation this is. Spirals.
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My very favourite thing about Darcy is his social awkwardness - this is not the swoonworthy hero of your dreams ladies - and this version is capturing that very nicely, even with so very little on-screen Darcy (thanks Jane!Darcy).
I KNOW! It's delightful! The robot jokes just make that work, too!
And my other favourite thing about this story is that it's fundamentally about Lizzie misinterpreting things and learning to perceive things in a different way. My favourite line in the book is "Until that moment I never knew myself", and I'm so, so happy with this series' interpretation of Lizzie as an unreliable narrator of her own life, and how it looks like she is going to learn and grow
YES YES YES!
I'm a moderate Austen fan--I like her very much but she's not one of my favorite writers or anything like that. But this is reminding me of why I do really like her: her sense of humor and her insight into people. Both of those are played up in beautiful ways in this adaptation.