this post should be read in the whiniest tone imaginable

[lirazel]

what am i going to write for seasonal_spuffy? am i even going to be able to write anything? i haven't written anything longer than, like, 500 words in forever, and i feel like i have completely lost all of my writing abilities. uuuuugh.

if i didn't have to be at work i would spend this day lay face-down on my bed moaning about how i never accomplish anything. which isn't even true, it's just what i feel like today. uuuuuugh.



i promise I'll be back to my regular chipper self soon--if all else fails i'll go home and watch clips of david mitchell ranting on youtube. this has been a whiny post. because what is lj but a place to be ludicrously self-indulgant, right?

Comments

[powerofthebook.livejournal.com]

I have the same problem routinely - where it seems like the muse ditched you to go on vacation? Usually, I try and lure her back with just a few sentences - nothing big, just playing around with a word or a mood. Then I try fleshing it out, and see if there's anything bigger there. Actually, I just posted the first chapters of one fic that started out that way - winter has the effect of draining much of my creative energy, and I wanted to get it back.

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

I think winter does have a lot to do with it--it just makes me feel tired all the time and wish we hibernated like the much smarter animals. Hopefully once spring returns (and looks like your icon!), we'll both pep up a bit.

[eilowyn.livejournal.com]

Oh, honey. I feel ya. You have a nice month until seasonal_spuffy starts, and I'm sure you'll come up with something by then.

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

Aw! Between your faith and that awesome icon, that made me feel better! :D

[ever-neutral.livejournal.com]

I am completely dead for ideas too. WAHHHH.

A writer leads a life of pain.

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

So true. So very, very true.

Let's pout for a while, okay?

[snickfic]

Well, you could always *cough* write whatever comes next after Grauidus. Which would be ridiculously greedy of me to ask for since you already wrote Grauidus and it is lovely lovely and makes me squee with delight. So I won't ask. I'm just sayin'. *g*

Also, you wrote that S8 Spuffy thing not long ago, and it was way more that 500 words, wasn't it? Not to mention your gorgeous Yuletide fic. And so on.

You always write gorgeous stuff and I have GREAT FAITH in you. So there. I have specifically selected my icon to show how much faith I have in you!

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

I had forgotten about that fic! I will keep that suggestion in mind. At this precise moment (and this will likely change when my mood shifts, for I am nothing if not fickle) I'm kind of thinking of writing a "Buffy-gets-amnesia" fic. Just let my id go crazy. But I probably won't end up writing that.

You are very good at encouragment, you know that? I did write the S8 thing, but I wrote it in a fit of passion in one sitting, which doesn't really feel like writing to me since I didn't actually have to work at it. But before that it had been since Yuletide, which feels like a long, long time for me. I think the weather's been affect my creativity.

AW! THANK YOU! ♥

[snickfic]

I TOTALLY SUPPORT the amnesia id!fic idea. I've discovered I have a serious thing for amnesia fic when it's written well, and some from you would be absolutely fabulous.

You are very good at encouragment, you know that?

Awww! I am so glad. Thank you. That means a lot to me.

[angearia.livejournal.com]

Writing woes suckitty suck suck.

I've been feeling like I'm in a rut, too, like I need to get the engine revving. And two things that helped was talking with someone else about fic which prompted ideas, then the person was all GO WRITE THIS (that's how I wrote the Spike as Bug Queen story, I was helping Bob with her story and I kept having ideas in the process that became a story of my own).

The other thing that always inspires me is other sources of art. Fanvids about the ship that evoke a certain mood, a song that I've always loved that maybe gives me an idea, the source canon itself maybe leaving a dangling thread.

When I feel like this, it's like my brain isn't firing on all cylinders and I have to lend it some spark. So I try to immerse myself in things that inspire creative thought. I also tend to avoid fanfic like the plague during this type of thing because it can be more of a deterrent for me (the one exception being one of Moscow Watcher's fics).

But that's my process. Maybe tell me a bit more about yours? I'll be the Kaylee to your creative writing engine.

If you wanna talk about stories, I'm always always around!

*HUGS*

You rock

[sarahlovesa.livejournal.com]

Um, not on your flist, so not sure of the etiquette of commenting. BUT.... I have to say something (and try not to sound too sycophantic), so forgive me if I am being presumptuous. Even if your muse has gone on holiday - to warmer climes maybe, if the weather is awful...well, I have absolute faith that she will return, because, as an avid reader of fanfiction, as an avid reader in general, you are the benchmark by which I judge all others. There are some really great fanfic writers, but you are something else. I have read Prism and Kaleidoscope so many times, not just because they press all my Spuffy buttons, but because of the bliss of reading writing of such quality. And I have tried to do LJ properly and I just cannot seem to fit it into my life, so what you do on your page fills me with awe. So be as self-indulgent as you like, because you rock, simple as that.
PS Have done the office pool thing for March Madness, which was torture as I let my heart rule my head, so will get no points! Anyway, saw your post about it and wanted to know why you are so down on the 10th Doctor, whom I worship 2nd only to Spike?

Re: You rock

[penny-lane-42.livejournal.com]

I just want to tell you that I always, always enjoy and appreciate your comments. I'm sometimes really, really bad at replying to people, so I'd never want you to think I ignore what you have to say, but sometimes I just don't get around to replying.

And I appreciate your encouragement so very much! You've inspired such a huge smile from me, and I'm so very, very pleased that you like my fic and especially that you feel that it's worth rereading! I appreciate your kind words more than I can say!

I forgot to turn in my office pool this year so I won't be winning anything either, but hey--it's the campaigning that's the most fun!

My issues with Ten are with how he treats Martha and Donna. He never appreciated Martha enough (probably because he was worrying over Rose too much), but I could have forgiven that. I have profound issues with what the show did with Donna at the end--erasing her memories and taking away everything she worked so hard for. Most of my anger is directed at Russel T. Davies and I won't ever forgive him for stealing her choices and her character growth from her. But I also resent Ten because she begged him not to take her memories--she would have preferred to die instead--and he did it anyways. Because of watching my grandmama's struggles with Alzheimer's, there is nothing more horrific that I can imagine than having your memories altered, especially against your expressed wishes.

So my issues with him are profoundly personal, and I understand if it doesn't ruin other people's enjoyment of him (and I still adore David Tennant and his wonderful face), but it's tainted something for me.

If that all makes sense.

Re: You rock

[sarahlovesa.livejournal.com]

How AWESOME to get a reply when you must have so many comments to read! You made my day, when I was feeling guilty for sending the cat that I recently rescued to the vet's to be spayed. I keep thinking of all the kittens she now can't have and stressing about it! Not interesting,I know, but it is on my mind.

I understand what you said about Ten. I really did not like the way Martha was treated and I HATED the end of the Donna storyline. Doctor Who is so much about how people change and grow. Donna thought she was nothing when she met him and by the end she showed she was completely extraordinary and was the one to save the universe. So to have her lose that and for Ten not to understand that there are worse things than dying was not my favourite bit of Dr W writing! But I still adore Ten, not as much as Spike who will always be the One, but still with all my heart. His heartbreak at always ending up alone and somehow hurting his companions every time, so he needs to be alone.... It just kills me. The episode where all the companions work together and they end up with some kind of life while he is left with nothing - I hardly breathed the whole way through it. His 'wonderful face' as you said was unbearable at times in its raw emotion. I am a sucker for the unsaid words where expressions and body language and gestures can say more than any speech! So I will always love him!
Best thing that has happened to me recently - I have a ticket to see David Tennant and Catherine Tate play Beatrice and Benedict on stage in London in the summer. To say I can't wait is slightly understating it! Ten and Donna live on stage in Shakespeare. Doesn't get better than that!