lirazel | Fic: Carnival

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Fic: Carnival

Okay, I've been working on these since I was halfway through Supernatural. Definitely my first crossover and the first time a crossover couple really appealed to me. I had fun with them; I hope you enjoy.

Drabbles are agonizing for me. I tend to use far too many words, and I hate having to cull even one--each word I take out physically hurts me. But the point is to teach you to be pithy and remind you that the most beautiful part of the picture is the frame, so I guess I can't complain.

And oh, yes. These are

stateofsoul's fault.

Title: Carnival
Author: Lirazel (

penny_lane_42)
Pairing/Character: Veronica Mars/Dean Winchester (Veronica Mars/Supernatural crossover)
Word Count: 1,119
Rating: pg-13
Warnings: none
Spoilers: All seasons of Veronica Mars, both seasons of Supernatural
Disclaimer: I am in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of Veronica Mars or Supernatural. No copyright infringement is intended.
Summary: They both know life isn’t sweet, and neither one of them believe in fairy tales. [Veronica and Dean and chances.]
A/N:This is a series of completely unrelated drabbles, all one hundred words in length—they aren’t meant to tell one coherent story but bits of several, some happier than others. Because I can’t imagine a universe in which Veronica and Dean wouldn’t be drawn to each other.

Cotton Candy

They both know life isn’t sweet, and neither one of them believe in fairy tales. Nightmares, they believe in—horror stories and urban legends and things that go bump in the night. They believe in keeping the few people you can trust close to you. They believe in protecting those they love, no matter the cost to themselves. They believe in guns and blood and rain clouds and watching the ones you love be stolen away forever.

And maybe they believe in happiness, but only because there has to be something to melt away in the rain when it comes.

Rollercoaster

She takes one look at him and knows he’s like Logan. Broken abandoned strong little boy is written all over his face, and just like with Logan, she knows he’s only got one thing to live for (at least with him, it isn’t her—she never could deal with that pressure).

She remembers what she said to Mac about rollercoasters and Piz and a nice, smooth ride (Piz is like the merry-go-round; it stops before it can get you sick). But she throws back the shot, heads across to the bar, and sits down beside him.

She’s always preferred rollercoasters.

Carousel

This isn’t going anywhere, and he knows it, and for the first time in a long time, he actually cares about that. She’s hot enough for a one night stand, and this town’s just like any other, but her eyes have as many sharp edges as his, and he thinks that maybe, in a world where he didn’t have the responsibilities he does, there could be a them.

Of course, in that world he wouldn’t be the kind of guy who would be drawn to those edges.

Their ragged edges fit together perfectly, but this will only last the night.

Lions and Tigers and Bears

Dean Winchester is the biggest pain in the ass Veronica Mars has ever met—and she’s known plenty. There’s the cocky grin, the swagger, the absolute conviction that he’s right, his patronizing tone every time he address her, his refusal to let her carry a gun.

But then there’s his desperation to protect “Sammy,” his belief in family, the way he talks about his parents…. Maybe he’s not so bad.

Maybe…?

“Move your hot ass, sweetheart. I know you wanna take a long moment to check me out, but demons ain’t gonna wait for that.”

Nope. Still annoying as hell.

Clown

She was tiny and perfect, but anything but fragile, and that just made him want to protect her more. She was the first person he’d ever seen walk into this life with both eyes open, no past with supernatural tragedy, no last resort. He’s pretty sure now that he loved her from the beginning for those very reasons.

One minute she’s tossing him a good-natured insult, the next she’s lying on the floor and the blood is pooling around her. She’s smiling a little, and he knows what the joke is: that he ever thought he could keep her safe.

Funhouse

They bring out the best and worst in each other, all extremes, till there’s no safe middle ground and they’re both unfit for a normal life. But maybe they were never meant for that, anyway. Maybe they don’t even want it anymore.

They compare scars and stories of close shaves, and it’s a little twisted, but it’s the only kind of comfort they know. After hunts, they cling to each other with a ferocity that would scare anyone else, but it’s their version of love or something that comes pretty close. They’ve forgotten what normal is, and they don’t care.

Balloons

He’s jealous of her relationship with Dad—he resents it—and though she can understand why, it’s the thing she hates most about him. He feels the same way about Wallace and Mac and Lilly’s memory and even Logan, all these people she loves and would do anything for. He only has Sam and her, and though he’s always said that that’s enough, she isn’t sure he really believes that.

If she could only make him see that in their lives, he’s the lucky one: every person you care about means one more person you’re only going to lose someday.

Bumper Cars

It quickly devolves into screams and accusations and name-calling, as it always does. It isn’t even the words that matter anymore, it’s the exhaustion behind them that cuts so deep. Every argument is like a surrender, and not the good kind. Neither of them can admit to each other or even themselves that they’re both petrified of being left alone once again. They have definite ideas of what weakness is, and neither of them is willing to crack first and admit how much they need each other. Instead, they throw around words like knives.

Both of their aims are true.

Tilt-A-Whirl

She’s curled up in the backseat of the Impala, and she kind of looks like she belongs there. Wrapped in his leather jacket, cuts crisscrossing her face, her eyes are closed, but she’s singing along with “Ramblin’ Man.” He’s done a good job of keeping the grin off of his face, but when Sam catches him glancing in the rearview mirror for the seventeenth time, his brother smirks at him.

He reaches over and smacks the back of Sammy’s head, because little brother’s got it all wrong: he’s no thirteen-year-old in puppy love.

At least that’s what he tells himself.

Ring Toss

She tries not to laugh at his ludicrously obvious one-liners, but she can’t help it. He’s much too pleased with himself, and the last thing he needs is an ego-boost, but she hasn’t felt this happy in a while, and she doesn’t care. She doesn’t care that she’s about to become one in a long list of girls he’s charmed or that she figured out mere hours after he got into town that he’s the same Dean Winchester wanted on suspicion of murder in St. Louis, along with dozens of other charges scattered across the country. Veronica’s sick of caring.

Fortune Teller

There’s sun and sand and, god, this is a cliché, because she’s blonde and looks great in a bikini.

Of course, she’s also got a taser gun in her bag, a pit-bull at her side, and a tongue that can slice him in half, but that’s all part of the appeal.

He remembers eighteen months ago, striking a desperate bargain at a crossroads, and thinking quite clearly: hell for all eternity.

Well, like the song, he may not be able to tell heaven from hell, but he’s pretty sure this ain’t the latter. Sun, AC/DC, a beer, and Veronica.

Heaven.

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Oh good lord. I've never completely understood the Dean/Veronica ship, but I think you just made me.

Each and every one of those was breathtakingly gorgeous and so concise and wow. And much how do you win with the carnival theme.

*goes to read a thousand times over*

And because I have to: If she could only make him see that in their lives, he’s the lucky one: every person you care about means one more person you’re only going to lose someday.

...That's just so perfectly Veronica and explains her thought process/actions incredibly well. Also a very beautiful line of many a beautiful line.

...That's just so perfectly Veronica and explains her thought process/actions incredibly well.

I thought I might be taking it a little far with that line--making Veronica too extreme--so it's such a relief to know you didn't think so and that it worked for you. Thanks.

Oh good lord. I've never completely understood the Dean/Veronica ship, but I think you just made me.

Well, that is most definitely the nicest compliment I could get, especially from you, the queen of converting me to bizarre pairings.

Thanks so much! I did have so much fun writing these, imagining all the different ways their relationship could go.

I really am so, so thrilled that you liked it.

Guh. Just--okay, my eyes are falling asleep on me, and I can barely get my brain working so I'll definitely have to come back and reply, but...wow. And owch, and wow, and--okay, I've read Dean/Veronica pieces here and there, but frankly I like my Veronica single and I'm way too cynical about how SPN has just two main characters and basically nothing else (however wonderful the brother relationship is). But sweetie, you've pretty much just made Dean/Veronica my SPN and VM OTP. Just, wow.

Also, you may hate writing drabbles, but you did an excellent job with these and the carnival theme--I'm so very, very jealous. You captured each scene so well, so quickly, giving a perfect image of a series of moments, and of the possibilities/truths of their relationship (which is now totally my canon. hey, VM's cancelled, and I don't watch SPN anymore. it could totally be canon!).

And, okay. I'm waking up now, anyway, what with the rhapsodizing, so I may as well finish this one up.

Favourite lines:

~~Um...everything?~~

Broken abandoned strong little boy is written all over his face, and just like with Logan, she knows he’s only got one thing to live for (at least with him, it isn’t her—she never could deal with that pressure).

Because, it's true. And--just--seriously, I'm too tired to be anything but incoherent, so...I like this line a lot. Dean=Logan w/o the pressure, because they're all too broken to be in a healthy relationship unless they've got some tie somewhere else.

Their ragged edges fit together perfectly, but this will only last the night.

But then there’s his desperation to protect “Sammy,” his belief in family, the way he talks about his parents…. Maybe he’s not so bad.
Maybe…?
“Move your hot ass, sweetheart. I know you wanna take a long moment to check me out, but demons ain’t gonna wait for that.”
Nope. Still annoying as hell.

ROFL. Seriously. Just...I'm trying to be quiet, because I have relatives sleeping right outside my room, but, LOL. So Veronica, so Dean, so perfect.

One minute she’s tossing him a good-natured insult, the next she’s lying on the floor and the blood is pooling around her. She’s smiling a little, and he knows what the joke is: that he ever thought he could keep her safe.

Owch. And wonderful. And owch.

If she could only make him see that in their lives, he’s the lucky one: every person you care about means one more person you’re only going to lose someday.

Okay, so here's Ronnie. Veronica, say hi? Because this is you. Eek!

And I am now consciously refraining from just quoting the entire thing back for you. You get it, right? Um, love the whole thing? Per usual with your writing, it seems ;D

Now: sleep.

PS. *notices tags* you mean "veronica mars," right? not "friday night lights"? ;) These are the things my brain remarks upon when it's tired. seriously. it's no wonder I come up with crazy ideas like K/S=Hercules/Meg :p

Aw! You made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside! You know how much I absolutely worship your stuff, especially this last half of In the Morning, so I am very flattered and humbled that you liked this. Especially with your thoughts on pairings.

I'm just so, so happy that you liked it. And I enjoyed finding out which were your favorite lines--some of my favorites are in there, too, as well as some that surprise me.

Thanks so, so much!

PS. Yeah, messed up the tags. Gotta change that.

Despite your persistence in writing fandoms I follow just a little (if at all ;p), your stuff is pretty much uniformly amazing. You have such a way with words, that I'm pretty sure is beyond me. I take forever to get around to the point :P

Isn't it amusing how people can experience you writing so differently? I swear, I don't realize half of what I'm doing even part of the time :P

I really am glad you decide to read them even if the fandoms/pairings aren't your thing. I love hearing from you, really. Especially since, as you know, I love your stuff so much. And I'm very, very humbled, really.

I always love it when people pick up on stuff in my writing that I never realized was there. "I love the way you did _____." Sometimes I pretend that I totally *meant* to write that wonderful thing they picked up on. Even when it was totally an accident.

I didn't realize until halfway through writing my first D/V fic how crazy compatible and alike these two are. I think you captured that really well in these drabbles. I liked these little glimpses into them. 'Balloons' was particularly lovely and heartbreaking.

She takes one look at him and knows he’s like Logan. Broken abandoned strong little boy is written all over his face, and just like with Logan, she knows he’s only got one thing to live for (at least with him, it isn’t her—she never could deal with that pressure).

So very true.

They are so the same person, seriously, with just enough differences to keep them from killing each other. Thanks very much; I'm glad you enjoyed them!

Argh! I Love me some Dean/Veronica.

And maybe they believe in happiness, but only because there has to be something to melt away in the rain when it comes.

Great drabbles.

I love them, too!

Thanks so much; I'm glad you enjoyed!

I usually don't like drabbles but these were absolutely perfect. Every last one of them. I can't even tell you which one was my favourite, because they all were. Dean/Veronica is my guilty pleasure so I was thrilled to see someone wrote this pairing again. I think I loved Tilt-a-Whirl best. Don't know why. Your characterization was spot on for both. And the Logan/Dean comparison made me giggle. ;) I hope you'll be inspired to write more of this pairing since this was soo good. And I can commisarate with the pain of having to cut words, my essays are always too long and having to shorten them is painful.

I'm actually not a huge fan of drabbles, either, so I understand. That makes me all the happier that you decided to take a chance on these! I'm so glad you enjoyed them. I've developed an inexplicable affection for these two--I just think they work. And I think I might love Tilt-A-Whirl best as well, for reasons unknown. Perhaps because it's the most optimistic?

At any rate, thank you so much for your kind comments, and I probably will be writing more of the two of them, so keep your eyes peeled.

Thanks so much!

What a gorgeous, touching ensemble of pieces! Thanks very much for sharing this.

Thank you so much! I'm very glad you enjoyed it. Thanks for reviewing,a nd I love your icon!

I like reading these. They build up to a sweet end.

Thanks for sharing. I enjoyed them.

Thanks so much! I'm glad you enjoyed them!

I've never actually considered this pairing before, though I've vaguely noticed a few people writing it. But yes, now I see it - you make it so achingly plausible, two somewhat broken people (and how I love the line 'their ragged edges fit perfectly together').

I hadn't seen many Dean/Veronica fics around, actually (I may just not be looking in the right place), and so I hadn't really considered it before I actually wrote the first one (it was Rollercoasters, actually).

I'm so very glad you enjoyed it and especially that you found it believable. It's their very ragged edges that I think would let them work.

Thanks again!

Oh, and by the way, I love your icon.

I couldn't say if I've seen very many or not, but I'm sure I've seen a few linked from

spnnewsletter - they'd probably be easy enough to search for if you were looking for any.

It's their very ragged edges that I think would let them work.

Yes, I think both of them would struggle to make it work with anyone who'd had a gentle, easy life. One of the reasons I could never see Veronica permanently with Piz.

Oh, and by the way, I love your icon.

Thank you!

Thanks for the tip--I may have to check a few of them out.

Yes, I think both of them would struggle to make it work with anyone who'd had a gentle, easy life. One of the reasons I could never see Veronica permanently with Piz. You just summed up exactly what I feel about the situation.

I suck. Really I do. How could I not have reviewed this? I could've sworn I left my usual rambling incoherent appreciation but apparently not. *headdesks* No fear, I am about to rectify the situation (be prepared, tonight I leave the full review for 'Hostile Takeover' and 'Like Blood and Fire' over on ff.net so prepare to be avaspammed)

This? So utterly heart-breakingly Veronica and Dean. With just a few words you manage to capture the two of them and the potential in their relationship in a way that can destroy your reader. In the best way possible of course.

Cotton Candy and Funhouse
I love the way you put them together, showing all the similarities in their world views. They're both cynical, slightly pessimistic, realistic almost to a fault. Not to mentioned abandoned and tough for the other person in their life - Keith and Sam respectively. The way they know their relationship isn't normal, isn't based on the ordinary but filled with threat and possible death but they don't care because they know nothing else epitomises what I think their relationship would be like.

Roller Coaster
That line about Dean being the same lost strong abandoned little boy that Logan is? That made me love you more than I already do. Which is hard to top. That is what makes Logan and Dean so very similar, a fiere independence, a tough attitude but so completely lost and slightly broken by the lives they've lead. It just shows exactly why V would fall for him. Plus, that mention of Piz made me smile.

Carousel
The idea of the two of them coming together for the night, even though Dean is thinking better of it because she's just as messed up and hard on life as he is.

Lions and Tigers and Bears
I like that this had a lighter tone, that she is immensely irritated by him, because Dean can be more than a little annoying at times. The way you bring in his protective love for Sammy yet finish it up with Veronica sounding so Veronica and exasperated was lovely.

Clown
I very nearly cried. Why? Because you broke Dean again! And killed Veronica! In the space of 150 words! Notice the exclamation points? That's because you constantly try to break me in the smallest ways with your fics. And you're succeeding. This was just so fantastic. The dark, almost sly humour that bled through at the end, that Dean had almost convinced himself that he could make it work, he could keep her safe and he only realises that he didn't when she's lying smiling in a pool of her own blood. *hugs Dean* THere there pet.

Balloons
This is resigned!Veronica, fearful but realistic and cynical and afraid and so so very Veronica. That they're jealous for the thing they each think drags them down.

Bumper Cars
This is what their relationship would end up on. Screams and fights and stubborness the other can't shake off because they're both right and wrong and they're both tearing each other down to keep themselves afloat.

Tilt-A-Whirl
I liked the simplicity of this. I really could see Veronica in the backseat and Sammy feeling all smug and mocking at Dean's new, well hidden adoration. It just felt right, the three of them and the Metallicar.

Ring Toss and Fortune Teller
These were fantastic. The way Veronica just kind of gives up, is disillusioned and disjointed by everything and figures, screw it (or more precisely, screw Dean) And the relatively happy ending for the both of them that is plausible and hopefully real somewhere.

LOVED IT ♥

Okay. First of all, you do not suck! I mean, look at the length of this review! You're awesome.

Second, I'm blushing. Really. I always love reading your thoughts on my stories--you're always insightful, and I feel like jumping up and down and yelling, "Exactly!" because I feel like we're almost always on the same page.

And I am so incredibly excited about being avaspammed on ff.n. Seriously. I can't think of anything to be more excited about right now.

Because you broke Dean again! And killed Veronica! In the space of 150 words! Notice the exclamation points? That's because you constantly try to break me in the smallest ways with your fics.

It's a sickness, I tell you! I just keeping breaking Dean and loving him being broken, and I feel like that's horribly sadistic of me, but I just can't stop. I just love him so much, and I just want to hug him afterwards and make it all okay...but I can't resist the temptation to break him all over again.

I say this all the time, but I am sooooo glad you liked it. I know you love these characters as much as I do, so that means a lot. Besides, you're a great writer yourself, so that gives the things you say more weight.

Thank you so, so much!

He reaches over and smacks the back of Sammy’s head, because little brother’s got it all wrong: he’s no thirteen-year-old in puppy love.

lol I loved that!

Thanks!

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