I always want to hug these kids. THEY ARE SUCH MESSES AND I LOVE THEM FOR IT.
I really like the imagery and how different you make her viewpoint from ours (or mine, at least; it occurs to me that I don't actually know if you love JM on a physical level as well as on a Fantastic!Actor!level).
I think she just looks at him completely differently than most of his fangirls do. We like to write fic about her immediately being, as Snick says, overcome with lust for him, but I just don't think that's in character until S6, after she's made a very long journey. (And yes, I love him on a physical level as well. :D I didn't start out that way, but at this point: yes.)
It also makes him sound a little like a puppy, when read out of context. :D
HE IS SUCH A PUPPY. Also a dramatic fourteen-year-old girl. All reasons I love him.
That's what I always thought she would tell herself about it afterward.
I can't think of her thinking of it any other way, honestly.
OMG, now I really want a future!fic of them painting nails together, it would be so bizarre and cool.
I would definitely read this. And enjoy it.
but also because there's a part of her that identifies with it? She isn't obvious about it, but when it comes to being loved by specific men in her life, she feels just as vulnerable (constantly abandoned) and desperate for their affection/presence (her dad, Giles, Angel, etc.).
ABSOLUTELY.
she's not hateful.
I don't think she's actually hateful very much in S6? She might sometimes hate herself, but I don't think Buffy's the type to hate other people. She'd feel guilty about it. So it makes more sense to me that she's terrified and tired and just so worn down, and so even when she does things that look hateful (like, say, beating Spike up in "Dead Things"), it's really coming from a place of fear. I don't think she really hates Spike at all, even if she might want to.
Anyway, I am absolutely thrilled that you enjoyed it. It was so satisfying for me to write on an id-type level, and I'm never sure if those kinds of fics are going to only work for me or whether others will connect to it, so I'm SO HAPPY that you did. And thank you thank you for the birthday wish! (It made me giggle!)
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I really like the imagery and how different you make her viewpoint from ours (or mine, at least; it occurs to me that I don't actually know if you love JM on a physical level as well as on a Fantastic!Actor!level).
I think she just looks at him completely differently than most of his fangirls do. We like to write fic about her immediately being, as Snick says, overcome with lust for him, but I just don't think that's in character until S6, after she's made a very long journey. (And yes, I love him on a physical level as well. :D I didn't start out that way, but at this point: yes.)
It also makes him sound a little like a puppy, when read out of context. :D
HE IS SUCH A PUPPY. Also a dramatic fourteen-year-old girl. All reasons I love him.
That's what I always thought she would tell herself about it afterward.
I can't think of her thinking of it any other way, honestly.
OMG, now I really want a future!fic of them painting nails together, it would be so bizarre and cool.
I would definitely read this. And enjoy it.
but also because there's a part of her that identifies with it? She isn't obvious about it, but when it comes to being loved by specific men in her life, she feels just as vulnerable (constantly abandoned) and desperate for their affection/presence (her dad, Giles, Angel, etc.).
ABSOLUTELY.
she's not hateful.
I don't think she's actually hateful very much in S6? She might sometimes hate herself, but I don't think Buffy's the type to hate other people. She'd feel guilty about it. So it makes more sense to me that she's terrified and tired and just so worn down, and so even when she does things that look hateful (like, say, beating Spike up in "Dead Things"), it's really coming from a place of fear. I don't think she really hates Spike at all, even if she might want to.
Anyway, I am absolutely thrilled that you enjoyed it. It was so satisfying for me to write on an id-type level, and I'm never sure if those kinds of fics are going to only work for me or whether others will connect to it, so I'm SO HAPPY that you did. And thank you thank you for the birthday wish! (It made me giggle!)