"It's weird how it manifests in different ways for different people, but so many of the feelings that underly the actions are the same."
So much word. The avoidance of interaction and the fear of judgement seems to be the common ground here. I actually DO attend 'social' events, but they are of the most antisocial kinds of all- theater plays and political events, both of which include people sitting and staring instead of communicating with each other. And on the political events, I'm too shy and nervous to say anything, while I always have so many amazing ideas and unique opinions. I'm usually the only young person in the room, most of the others are in their 50s or 60s. I KNOW they would appreciate me if I actually said something, but I'm too nervous and feel like an outsider instead of becoming the unique young thing they would love. The next event is tomorrow night and I'm working on an amazing speech I wanna say right now. Pray for me to finally have enough courage, and the conversation to flow in a direction where it would have a great effect.
Sorry for trolling around in this entry so much. Just so much relatable stuff, and a girl has to socialize somewhere, you know?:)
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So much word. The avoidance of interaction and the fear of judgement seems to be the common ground here. I actually DO attend 'social' events, but they are of the most antisocial kinds of all- theater plays and political events, both of which include people sitting and staring instead of communicating with each other. And on the political events, I'm too shy and nervous to say anything, while I always have so many amazing ideas and unique opinions. I'm usually the only young person in the room, most of the others are in their 50s or 60s. I KNOW they would appreciate me if I actually said something, but I'm too nervous and feel like an outsider instead of becoming the unique young thing they would love. The next event is tomorrow night and I'm working on an amazing speech I wanna say right now. Pray for me to finally have enough courage, and the conversation to flow in a direction where it would have a great effect.
Sorry for trolling around in this entry so much. Just so much relatable stuff, and a girl has to socialize somewhere, you know?:)