http://blackfrancine.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] blackfrancine.livejournal.com) wrote in [personal profile] lirazel 2010-09-22 12:00 am (UTC)

Have I ever told you you're my hero? And everything I long to be?

BECAUSE THIS POST IS EVERYTHING. THE END.

It is everything that is true in life.

I wish I'd seen [livejournal.com profile] ohwaluvusbab 's comment on your other post. Because that comment is so, so true for me as well. I feel the exact same way. (*ahem* actually I have been tempted to say this very thing about Buffy in season 6, actually). It's not about lack of love--Buffy (and me and ohwaluvusbab) being closed off. It never has been. She's closed off because of pain and vulnerability and loss and fear.

In a way, I really think it's because she loves TOO much. Because I know that for everyone it's scary to expose your feelings. But, when those feelings--that love--cuts to your very core? When it is like the spinal cord that connects every part of you and holds you together and if it's cut off or denied you'll lose your ability to function entirely? It's too terrifying. Even for someone who faces actual death daily.

Also, let's talk about Riley. Last time I watched season 4 and 5 (which was just a couple of months ago), I was struck by how utterly ridiculous Riley's actions were in season 5. Utterly. In season 4, Buffy slowly turns away from everyone in favor of Riley. She (without meaning to) shuts out Giles and grows apart from Willow, Xander AND her mom. (And, hey, that often happens in new relationships. Nothing weird there.) Heck, she even was willing to go guns a'blazin' into the Initiative to get him back with no plan and no intel. So, in short: He was the center of her world. THAT'S how Riley liked their relationship.

As soon as she took command back of her senses and started spending more time with her friends and mom and watcher, poor widdle Riley got his feewings hurt. Then her mother got a freaking tumor and a hell god came after her sister. Poor baby that Buffy can't cater to YOUR feelings while her mom is in the hospital, possibly dying.

And Xander. Oh, Xander. I won't even go into it. Because this comment is already too long.

And last, let me say a big fat WORD to this:

And yes, that might not be compatible with the way you do things, and that might frustrate you. And that's okay. BUT QUIT TELLING US THAT OUR WAY OF DOING THINGS IS WRONG.

This literally happens to me on a weekly basis. Someone tells me I'm not doing it right.

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