i can't even. i can't. i never used to understand why people hated b/a, even when i stopped shipping it. it just seemed so benign to me, so not worth the energy.

but now i understand so very thoroughly. and i hate that i ship a "competing" ship sometimes because i think it taints the arguments i'm making but COME ON. WHAT SHOW WERE WE WATCHING? DID YOU WATCH HOME? BECAUSE I DID.

i hate this fandom. ultimately, it's not b/a that i hate so much as what b/a chooses to be. and that brings me a lot of really aggravated rage. xlivvielockex wants me to write b/a meta because i just have so many feelings, but - i have no idea. just so many feelings.