OOOF. Yeah. The more accurate something like that is, the harder it can be to watch if you relate to it. It makes so much sense that it was so hard for you. SO glad you're in a better place now!

the show's overarching theme is the inherent moral injury of police work and how it psychologically erodes anyone engaged with it

This makes me want to watch it! I've thought about it because of the cast and hearing it highly praised, but I never have watched it myself.