I really wish I could get to that "I'm only writing for me" place, but I have not yet reached it.
Yeah, I wouldn't worry about it too much? It's not that I don't love every comment I get to bits, but realistically, I don't get enough comments because (see reasons above) and I've had to make peace with that. And I personally need writing as an outlet; I know from painful experience that me not writing is a sign of something larger that's wrong with me and unfortunately I can't have it both ways. So I, at least, had to put this into a larger context and somehow get make it both work. So the only way to actually do that was to make myself not care.
I don't think there's anything bad about not being at that point.
I am, however, also very lucky that over the years I've shared most of my fandoms with carmenta, so I had at least one person in my corner. We can probably debate about how healthy it is to have my mental equilibrium hung up on this, but, frankly, I'm not ready to examine that.
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Yeah, I wouldn't worry about it too much? It's not that I don't love every comment I get to bits, but realistically, I don't get enough comments because (see reasons above) and I've had to make peace with that. And I personally need writing as an outlet; I know from painful experience that me not writing is a sign of something larger that's wrong with me and unfortunately I can't have it both ways. So I, at least, had to put this into a larger context and somehow get make it both work. So the only way to actually do that was to make myself not care.
I don't think there's anything bad about not being at that point.
I am, however, also very lucky that over the years I've shared most of my fandoms with carmenta, so I had at least one person in my corner. We can probably debate about how healthy it is to have my mental equilibrium hung up on this, but, frankly, I'm not ready to examine that.