I just had a week with some friends and friends of friends--where I had no escape. And I thought I was gonna lose it. It was especially hard when I was sober, and other people were drunk and they were trying to tell me how much they UNDERSTOOD me--and yet... they didn't. They were talking around the depression and anxiety as if it were something I could *conquer*--like, "Buck up little, soldier! The sun will come out tomorrow!" And the lack of understanding was so profound that it made me laugh. Like, I couldn't even respond, because what's the point? They were drunk, and they couldn't hear me anyway.
But, the whole thing really has underscored for me how valuable the internet is to me--I think I'd started to take for granted feeling accepted and understood because of the people here. ♥
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I just had a week with some friends and friends of friends--where I had no escape. And I thought I was gonna lose it. It was especially hard when I was sober, and other people were drunk and they were trying to tell me how much they UNDERSTOOD me--and yet... they didn't. They were talking around the depression and anxiety as if it were something I could *conquer*--like, "Buck up little, soldier! The sun will come out tomorrow!" And the lack of understanding was so profound that it made me laugh. Like, I couldn't even respond, because what's the point? They were drunk, and they couldn't hear me anyway.
But, the whole thing really has underscored for me how valuable the internet is to me--I think I'd started to take for granted feeling accepted and understood because of the people here. ♥