my makeup is limited to a nail polish for the most part. i've forgotten what my un-painted nails look like. very rarely, when i am feeling particularly ~daring~ *coughShoshannalikecough*, i put on obnoxiously red lipstick.

i don't know. everybody puts themselves together for the world differently. and so long as it's not because they are convinced nobody will accept them without it, because they actually won't be accepted if they don't, i don't get judgey about it.

when i think about makeup on myself, it feels absurd, you know? i am literally painting my face. and i feel silly. and i will pick extra sleep over pretty much everything ever in the whole world. plus i sort of hate the attention i get when i wear it, because everybody notices the difference and remarks upon it. and i know that's sort of the point of makeup, but it makes me feel really funny and self-conscious.